Friday, January 31, 2003
seriously think that there is something wrong with me nowadays. i have like this major attitude problem with my friends and it totally sucks.
went back to ij for mass today, dunno whether it was a wise choice. supposed to go out for lunch with mama teo, tania, pam and azaria but we didnt cos mama teo had to go for a meeting and hui zhen asked me to follow her to town cos she was gonna meet eve and all... so i went. anyway, i was just standing there being invisible yan while tania and pam and mr ng had their own conversation. wtf. although tania later said azaria was coming back ( only a couple dared to pon cj today.. ), but i couldnt stay any longer, felt suffocation + fustration + dunno what other rubbish emotions, so i left and went to town.
met up with eve ( who couldnt stop talking about her senior and netball... ), zhen, liz, nat and a couple of her cj frenz. took neos again today with eve, liz and terence but somehow it didnt cheer me up. saw fiona and the barker guyz and vicky at far east taking neos too.
feel like shit now. fuck.
happy new year people.
22:54
Thursday, January 30, 2003
just got off the phone with tania and i realised something... she is
crazier than i thought she was and definitely
very sick in the head, dont know what "not bathe
with erm, but bathe
for erm and scrub back, etc"... beyond help liaoz.
23:06
just came back from town... damn tired, but had loads of fun. took 3 neos today!!! yay! haappiness. (",) anywayz, went with vanessa and realised that the 2 of us of quite a bit in common, we both like the same kind of clothes and like spicy food, etc. she is quite a nice girl. saw mandy, mel, alex, iris at far east, then saw vic and her bf at somerset mrt, she was like giggling her head off... that girl... haiz.
pam asked me to go watch 8 mile but i declined cos i already asked vanessa yesterday to go out with me today.. so not very nice to tell her i cant make it, anywayz, my jie didnt go, so i didnt go too. ( just in case, i didnt refuse to go to the movie bcos of what has been going on but bcos i really couldnt make it )
its new year's eve tmr... which means i am FINALLY going back to ij !!! woohoo~
19:53
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
its another day of silence in school... so i spend my free time sleeping and with vannessa and all. dont know what is wrong with me, if anybody knows, please inform me. i guess its all awkward cos i am used to being approached and not the other way around, actually they tried talking to me, but i just couldnt be my normal self, dont know why... its very bad, but that's me. x (
life sucks.
my mummy is still sick. she finaally saw a doctor today.
15:28
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
half my class escaped during recess today... so empty after that. sat by myself right at the back for the rest of the day.
went for fiona's birthday party today... it wasnt that bad. played truth or dare with my classmates, and i unluckily got dare. had to remove a pair of specs from somebody's face, but luckily, i didnt have to remove it from a guy's face. so it aint that bad. some dares were really horrible... sashi had to do a butt dance, daniel had to do a dance also, mizi had to kiss the pillar and some others... it was quite fun lahz. hope the pictures will come out fine. zaf suggested taking photos in class for memory's sake. so sweet right?
tan called me when i was on my way home from fiona's place, and she made me tell her my "secret" then she will tell me hers cos it involved me directly... in the end, it was all a load of crap. //tan you cheat!!!
//to those who know what was wrong with me, i am fine now, so yar... now the situation is gonna be a little awkward but yar... i'll cope, i guess.
//pam : hmm... thanks for being concerned i guess, asking az and tan what was wrong, but i'll be fine.. soon.
so annoying !!! called mama teo just now to help ask ms tan to write an invitation to cjc so that they can come back for cny mass, but ms tan said no cos apparently cjc is having their own mass. so now i cant see penguin and my other friends who wanted to come back. so sad! - sulks - well, i guess ill just have to meet up with the rest another day...
well, guess that's my day for today.
22:29
Monday, January 27, 2003
just came back from my grandmother's place... feel so blissful. drank a bowl of her winter-melon soup. although the soup is very common, but judging that i only see this grandmother of mine a couple of times a year, during chinese new year, it makes things different. i am a happy girl now. - smiles -
its amazing how small actions that others do can change your mood. - sighz - the wonders of life.
p.s : just saw one of the comments tan left for me... so here's what she wanted to hear ( whether they are true or not is another story... )
//dearest "chunli" : ermm..... hmmm... ahhh... miss your madness and your stubbornness and the $1 drinks you always get from the shop behind ij... most of all, i miss the times we stayed back to study and the time you broke the glass cabinet... and the time you "peed" on the floor... want me to continue? haha. i'll leave all the mushy words for your darling azaria to say... anywayz, ill see you in school on friday. - smuackz -
22:02
had a lousy day in school today, but it turned out slightly better towards the end of the day as i made more new friends from the other side of my class.... its fiona's bday party tmr and hopefully i can go since vanessa and all wants me to go.
hmmm... was messaging that dear penguin (see, you are officially known as penguin now...) of mine, and told her if she was free, to gimme a call cos i was suffering from major depression. i thought she wouldnt call cos cjc doesnt allow them to bring hp ( but who cares... ) but she did, and she had to call from the toilet... so sweet right? although the conversation was like damn short, but it made my day. (",) anywayz, when i came home, i decided that ill give her a call since i also never call her, but she was faster and called first... sucha sweetie.
//penguin : told you to check back here to see why i wanted to call you, its just to say thank you and that i really appreciate it that you called. hmm... and that maybe what you said is true, i do care, but my character is such that i wont admit that i care, so i tend to just shut up and mind my own business, waiting for others to ask why... guess that aint good huh? so, i guess that's about it. and yes, i am suffering from m.m.s and m.a.s.
19:58
Sunday, January 26, 2003
my mummy is ill... that poor thing. hope she gets well before chinese new year.
chinese new year is in less than a week, but there is absolutely no excitement... think i am getting too old for chinese new year, it is the same every year, all the relatives will ask, "so, which jc you in now?" or "which jc do you want to go?" or "go poly lah, not bad what, can get diploma..." blah blah blah. guess the only good thing is spending money on new stuff ( like i dont buy new stuff ever so often... ) and getting to see my favourite grandmother who never fails to cook yummilicious food on the first day.
well, after cny comes valentine's day... wont be spending much money on this ocassion this year since all my "lovers" are all in various schools...
22:39
Saturday, January 25, 2003
i swear the guys in my group are nuts!!! they were competing to see whose voice could go higher... it was hilarious.and darryl kept on talking in his girlie voice that i told him i wished his voice would remain that way forever... haha. quite funny. then during gp, we had to do this mock sat paper... so bloody hard. we were all like "eh, how to do this question?" left with sian kia after that and went tp to eat... had long john... the new clam chowder is quite yummy. we were sitiing there and talking about ij teachers and all... nice eating and chatting with you jie!!! (",)
went all the way to bukit timah after that to cut my hair... it turned out pretty alright.
my kor is back and he is in a bad mood.... apparently the tailor at lucky plaza tried to cheat his money... but too bad it didnt work. so now my brother's jeans aint altered...
16:21
Friday, January 24, 2003
feel so nice and refreshed after taking a long long bath and scrubbing all the dried mud off my hands and legs...
pre-fitness day at pasir ris park was overall quite okay... spoked to some of my classmates that sits at the other end of the class and found that they are all quite nice... the girls are nice and chatty while the guys are a mischievous bunch and gentlemanly. although we didnt win any prize, but all of us had fun... well, most of us did.
i would like to thank the milo van that came cos it absolutely saved everyone from dying of thirst. the fuji apples were big and juicy but i didnt really liked the muesli bars.
amir made daniel do a pole-dance before he was willing to sign the paper for the scavenger hunt ... to bad we werent that to watch. haha. but i think mizi and daniel really ran like crazy to look for amir cos he was at the other end of the park and we had to get 4 pe teachers signatures... and there are only 4 pe teachers in oi, so must get all...
just came back from walking a chinatown... my legs are so gonna drop off... tmr still must get up early and go to school. bleah.
16:22
Thursday, January 23, 2003
we promised each other
to be friends forever,
but as time goes by,
we seem to be drifting apart.
is it my fault or yours
that we end up like this?
is it my fault cos
i never called?
or is it yours cos
you never asked how i felt,
but always talk about yourself?
i really want us to be friends forever
cos you mean everything to me.
you were there to give a hug,
you were there to lend a shoulder,
you were there to share a joke,
you were there to put up with me,
you were there to take neos.
i never really thanked you,
cos i took you for granted.
but now that you are gone,
i realise how fortunate i am,
to have a friend like you.
hopefully, its not too late
for me to thank you,
to tell you i love you,
and that i miss you
more and more each day.
i sincerely hope that
our friendship will last
till the day
we breathe our last.
- original.creation.by.me...not.bad.yar? -
15:56
Wednesday, January 22, 2003
hmph. my brother owns a 6610 and i dont...*takes a deep breath* never mind. i shall be patient and wait for my turn.
looks like i'll have to go to pasir ris park on fri now.. since attendance is part of the critieria to win overall... the teachers quite smart, know loads of people not planning to go on that day, so think of this kind of idea. but to be at pasir ris by 0740, a bit hard... lets see if my dad can fetch me. and must wear oi pe attire... gross.
14:50
Monday, January 20, 2003
my poor toes got injured again today during pe. we were playing floorball when somebody from the opposite team used the stick and whacked my toes while trying to whack the ball... not only that, after that the they scored, so we had to do push-ups... then my pe teacher made us do 50 star jumps cos we didnt follow instructions (ie when one team scores, the other must do 5 push-ups) but he see us do 15 odd and all want to die already, he let us off... am i supposed to say he is nice? nahz.
p.s oi's school shorts are absolutely uncomfortably.
17:37
Sunday, January 19, 2003
went for jasmine's birthday party today... the rain was a major bummer but it was still loads of fun. we played mahjong and pool... the food was so yummy i overate... anywayz, if my cousin is reading this, she'll laugh her head off, cos i got my retribution today... i accidentally dropped some cds on her toe yesterday, today shang accidentally rolled the ball too hard and it fell off the pool table and bounced onto my toes... the ball isnt exactly very light lorz... *ouch*
went to town to meet my mum and brother after that and i bought a pair of nice nice slippers... with a little heel and is glittery. (",) it cost about 65 bucks... while my brother bought levi's engineered and a shirt... total about 200+... we really can spend boy!
well, shall try to convince him go star shox with me... - grinz -
tmr got pe... so gonna get muscle ache again. bleah.
22:43
Saturday, January 18, 2003
just came back from a yummilicious dinner... had german food cos its my brother's birthday on thursday so we went out to celebrate.
called jasmine just now and she refused to continue talking to me just cos azaria called... that stupid cow!!! - sticks out tongue - hope tmr's sun will be shining brightly so that i can get a tan... i am getting so fair i think i am going to look like casper soon.
oh yar... went out with my cousin for a while today and we were at the cd shop when i accidentally dropped some cds on her last toe... so its now red and a little swollen... haha... was laughing my head off in the shop and the assistant thought we were nuts... of cos my cousin was cursing and swearing at me but i think it was hilarious. (",)
22:56
Friday, January 17, 2003
happened to see mushrrom online this morning... and jasmine was online too, so the 3 of us were together once again... chatting like old times... always putting jasmine down, but well, she deserves it. haha. miss mushroom loads!!!
nothing much happened today except loads of free periods and we skipped chinese so absolute boredom.
23:57
Thursday, January 16, 2003
lazy to write long essay.. so here goes...
// justin looks at fiona... we laugh...
// justin has a major attitude problem
// emily is finally back
// new history teacher but horseface is still teaching us
// slept for like 4 hrs today...
thats all.
23:26
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
have a bump on my head now cos i hit my head this morning while standing up.. didnt walk far out enough and stood up straight, hitting the short and slanting ceiling next to the staircase in school... its our gathering spot in the morning. anywayz, my friends heard the sound of my head hitting the ceiling even before i could respond to the pain... major headache now. think i am getting more and more clumsy.. first was my finger on monday, now my head... wonder what's next?
nothing much happened in school today... econs was pretty fun cos mr raj told spas and lame jokes as usual.
was talking to jasmine on the phone last night, sounds as though she is having quite a bit of fun in school... her teachers sound pretty cool and the jokes they tell are also pretty dumb... missin' u gurong!!! ill try my best to go on sunday yar?
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-
There are so many words I cannot say,
when I look into your eyes.
I want to be able to tell you one day,
but I'm left speechless every time that I try.
You must have stumbled across the key,
and discovered so much more.
You found a hidden place in me,
you found my heart and opened the door.
And I cried in pain
of losing my dear friend.
Someday I will see,
though that day has not come yet.
You'll say you love me,
but will you ever forget?
If that happens and my spirit dies,
if my emotions drop,
will you want to hold me when I cry?
Or will the love just suddenly stop?
We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.
You'll stay and play your part,
but after the beauty starts to die,
will your footprints still be on my heart?
Though it would be hard to say goodbye,
your friend I'll always be,
as long as we always try,
to keep the friendship between you and me.
The letter I will not send
will casually inquire,
how could you have brought it to an end?
I was your one desire.
After this life is over,
you'll be one person I know I'll miss.
It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this...
I'll hold you for a lifetime,
if you'll just hold my hand.
We could have a wonderful time,
in the days we have not yet planned.
15:51
Tuesday, January 14, 2003
today was a yucky yet sweetish day. stupid horseface picked on me when the bell rang, and the whole class depended on me to answer one of his questions so that everyone could leave early, but dumb me who so dont understand what he has been yakking in class answered wrongly, so everybody had to stay back for about 5 minutes... sorry people!!!
anywayz, went back to ij after that and saw my sweeties selina and adrienne... saw mrs low with her rebonded hair... so not her but she still looked ok and mrs lee who curled her hair looked more chio than ever... but didnt get to see jo teo, who lost quite a bit of weight. then hung around and waited for my parents to pick me up.
azaria came and she played soccer with tan, who luckily didnt do the rooster hair today. stupid woman refused to give me a hug. *sulks*
gtg... cos my brother needs to use the computer and since he is seldom around, i shall be nice and leave. ciao!
============================================
i thought i was over you
but after seeing you that day
i realised something
you have always been on my mind....
19:46
Monday, January 13, 2003
rotting away in school now since gay guy aint around... so many free periods today and theres dreaded pe later... emily saw the post about her and daryl... quite funny larhz.
emily went home early cos she aint feeling well... hope u get well soon!
watched the guys play football at the basketball court outside the library... they were having loads of fun till one of them fell and his face got scratched *ouch* and was bleeding, so they decided to stop. and sexy legs' shorts split while he was doing one of his power kicks... haha.
combined pe with val's class was quite fun... played netball *horray* floorball, basketball, handball, had to do pushups or squat-downs if one of the teams lost... we did like the most for handball. then petrina and i kept looking at each other and burst out laughing for no reason... damn funny. i think i hurt my finger while playing the games... pain.
came home and slept for about before azaria that "dear" of mine called me on my hp (pls dont forget that i dont use starhub... no free incoming calls yar?) and started yakking and singing *goosebumps* ... spoke to her for half an hour before she finally let me go back to sleep... but quite sweet larhz... she call me, i always never call her.
09:01
Sunday, January 12, 2003
after sitting in front of my computer for like cenutries, my comments link and guestbook are all in working order... so leave me comments and sign in my guestbook... eve : you must be very happy cos i managed to figure it out without asking you for help... *hee* but i need you to help me put the links to yours and azaria's webby and try to locate one of my archive, its missing (191202 - 040103)... thks. yesyes, i know i owe u plenty of treats now but must go take neo after that... haha.
15:28
Saturday, January 11, 2003
nothing much happened in school on fri, just another day of boring lessons, free periods, freezing and defrosting during and after lessons... and of course more laughter with those crazy friends of mine. we were teasing em about daryl always looking at her, but she refuses to admit... quite funny, especially the look on her face when mel threatens her with daryl... all that rubbish. *smiles*
jc?poly?oi?
a question that has been on my mind for quite a while now. i want to go to a jc bcos i get to wear a uniform, that somehow represents discipline, but i am afraid that i wont be able to cope with a two yr course unless i study everyday. poly is not a bad choice bcos ill graduate with a diploma, however, which course to take? hospitality? law? or just stay in oi? this is if i get below 20 pts for my Os... life sucks.
~~~ missin' you people loads !!! ~~~
mushroom : miss yakking on the phone and taking neos with u... i so hate time difference, dont u?
azaria : miss almost everything about u. ('though i didnt tear over what u wrote in my book, but it was definitely heartwarming)
eve : miss the nonsensical stuff that u say
jasmine : miss your mad behaviour... cow.
baker : miss your smile... how is *coughcough*? -grinz-
nicky & noriza : miss u guyz too although we aint as close as before... thks for being part of my life. *smuackz*
2/1 people : miss having recess with u guyz... [esp. the twins, selina, suzanne, vivienne, shang zhi, and many more]
4/3 peeps {az, eve, bri, zhen, liz} : miss taking photos with u guys and just talking crap.
basically, i miss everyone (well, almost everyone) from ij !!!
urgh. stupid bogspot. whole life screwed up. cant post my post. -fumes-
19:51
Thursday, January 09, 2003
today was another boring yet funny day in school. my lit teacher is SO mr chan, we all think he is gay... haha. and his handwriting is horrendous, he couldnt even read what he wrote and he is the first to give us homework. (urgh) my history teacher is ultra boring. so far the only lessons that dont make me feel like sleeping is chinese and econs lecture... there is double lit and history tmr, at the start and end of the day respectively... yuck.
today was funny cos emily told us that she won a baby contest when she was little... she so dont look like it. lol. and as usual, we were all talking bad abt this girl in our school who is major ... ... *ponders* cant think of a word to describe her, but it definitely aint good. although we still dont know a lot of people in oi, but when it comes to that girl, all the girls from the various ij schools unite. quite a sight actually, everybody huddling together, not knowing each other's name yet we share something common besides the uniform.
22:17
Wednesday, January 08, 2003
havent updated in a couple of days cos there was something wrong with the blog... (there still is, waiting for my poor friend ever dearest eve to help me right the wrong) well, school is getting better now that i made some new friends, my classmates mostly. people like fiona (st nicks), emily, petrina and one more but i dont know how to spell her name (all three from sjc), we sit right at the back of the class and laugh at everything... ij reunites with its sister schools (no idea what i am writing.. major headache)
we were like major gossiping during our breaktime and pretty mean to the bishan boy (thats what et calls them)... never seen anyone with an ego as big as his... the last two rows at the back of the class learnt yesterday's freezing lesson and everyone brought a jacket today... lessons are so-so, but history absolutely sucks. lets see how lit goes tmr.
head hurts big time, so gonna take panadol and sleep now... walked in the rain so many times today.
15:47
Sunday, January 05, 2003
the t.q was fab!!! we were like sitting right in front of the stage.... at the corner, so i had to strain my neck while az was blocked by the speaker... leaving pam with the quite perfect view. we met mama teo and ongie there during the intermission, and hungry mama teo thought that it the concert was over and she wanted to go off and eat, we were all confused, until she realised that it was only an intermission... lol. after the concert was over, we went to eat, then nice mama teo sent all of us home. now i know why az is always late when she goes out and the reason for needing her mum to come pick her up from the mrt station cos her hse is very far in. (so, az u are forgiven for always being late... but that doesnt mean u can be later from now on...)
oh yar, received a call from my dearez mushroom too..... what a great day sat was. but we kept on getting cross-line, so we had no choice but to hang up... MISS U MUSHROOM!!!! (",)
there's school tmr... hope its better after getting into class and starting lessons.
eve : im so sorry, but can u pls remove that
thing that appears before and after every blog? and wheres my guestbook?
*hee* i owe u more than one lunch now.... thks.
12:12
Saturday, January 04, 2003
hey fixed it!!:) eve
20:24
Friday, January 03, 2003
school today was slightly better... made a new friend called genevive from the ij family (sjc). she reminds me a little of theresa ho and the twins (dianne and joanne). the games were okay... laughed quite a bit today, guess that is good. school ended pretty early for orientation ( at 1.30 ).. games were only 2 hrs long while other schools have like 4 days (cjc) or 8 days (njc) of orientation.. serious lessons start on monday, hopefully ill get into a class with people i know.
going to the esplanade tmr night... looking forward to it.
missing u again today...
eve : the stoopid comments link doesnt work and the archives thing is now right at the bottom of the page... help me fix k? thks dear !!! (",)
15:41
Thursday, January 02, 2003
boo!eve here.school sucked on my side too.they called us "freshies"..FRESHIES ARE U READY??
(repeat x3)
we took 1.5 hr to get home.and tomorrow our orientation is until 6.30( most prolly 7)
food sucks here..!
23:07
today was the first day of school, which was absolutely boring... so boring that some of them left ard 11... the auditorium smelt as though the doors were closed for years and were only opened today... the toilet only had one cubicle but lotsa sinks, the canteen food sucked, but pretty cheap, the gym was half the size of ij's, my og was damn dead. i was the only ij(tp) girl in my og, but there were a couple of other ij girls, we didnt know each other but we all had the same attitude... when we were supposed to dance the ketchup song as part of ice-breaker, we just stand there and stone.. the typical ij attitude. I MISS IJ !!! *sobsob* everything in ij now seems so wonderful and fantastic... now i know what people mean when they say "you don't appreciate what you have until you lose it".
as much as i dislike the school, staying there after three months is still an option as i dont think ill be able to cope with a 2 year course, that is if my results permit me to go to a jc... or ill go straight to poly even if i get below 20 pts....
major depression.
hope other people had more fun than i did (obviously they did) on their first day.
missing u already.....
17:13
Wednesday, January 01, 2003
a new year is here again, and it wont be spent in ij. although ive only spent 4 yrs in ij, the few months spent in school till 10 and going back on sundays, mugging for the exams are one of the most memorable times i have... now i know what people mean when they say "once an ij girl, always an ij girl"
sch starts tmr... hopefully ill make new friends that will last, and continue to be on good terms with those who arent in the same school as me. guess that will be one of my many new year resolutions... the other resolution will be to try and forget u.
17:13
