Thursday, February 27, 2003

watched today... it was pretty good. there were some parts where it was all so familiar, like when april fell in love with "spence" who is actually her best friend in a guy's body... only some will know what i am talking about... went to walk around after that and ede bought this dress that she looked very nice in...she is naturally pretty, so yar.

results are coming out tmr.. less than 24 hrs. gosh. where did my worries go?
good luck people.

//eden : although i wont be seeing u tmr, but i hope that u will receive good news from your father.
//azaria : dont worry, you will do well. dont forget our bet yar? im waiting to get my money from you tmr...
// jasmine : hope u will do well enough to make aj wanna keep you there yar?
//eve, bri, liz, zhen : hope you guys will get the results you want. i miss u people.
// 2/1 people : hope u people do really well... 2/1 united!
//jie : hope that u will get the score u want and end up in a jc
//daniel : try not to think too much or be too stressed out... you are becoming a nervous wreck.
//cg 111 : hope u all will do well and get out of that hellhole. ill miss you nutties after march!
//people whom i forgot, sorry, hope you all will do well too!

21:44

Wednesday, February 26, 2003

its like 12+ already, and i just came back abt an hour ago from my class's bbq at east coast. it was held at my classmate, zav's place, the condo is called "villa marina" and it is DAMN CHIO !!!! the pool and esp the toilets and clubhouse look like a hotel... gosh!!! it's really beautiful. anyway, we went to east coast beach and played with water and sand, before heading back to zav's house for the bbq. while they got the pit ready, some of us went swimming in the gorgeous pool and taking photos.

we swum and swum although most of the time we were keeping a lookout for the security guard cos most of them were swimming in their home clothes. but it was pretty fun. by the time we got out of the pool, there were only chicken wings and some noodles left, but i wasnt very hungry so i just ate a couple of chicken wings. my stomach is growling now.... like what my cousin would say, "dying of starvation in singapore"

off to sleeep now. so tired, sure cant wake up in the morning to go to school. but nvm, its pasta day... ede and nessa and i are gonna eat pasta, the only reason why we arent staying at home to recuperate from the fun we just had.

00:47

it is confirmed.
the 'O' Level results are coming out on 28 February 2003, after 1400.

00:38

Monday, February 24, 2003

today was a so-so day... pe was pretty fun despite the fact that my toes got whacked by the floorball stick twice and got kicked in the shin twice, all by the same person and endless sets of push-ups.

results are coming out soon... surprisingly, i am not feeling the stress. maybe cos i no longer worry about my L1R5, but my L1R4 or maybe its becase i am not sitting in the gym, awaiting the results to be revealed, the few moments before it is my turn to see how i have fared...

well, tmr is my class bbq. hope it turns out fun and all... x)

20:28

Sunday, February 23, 2003

its such a boring boring boring day... xp

20:26

Saturday, February 22, 2003

went to tp's open house today and it was pretty good. the law management course is pretty interesting, the guy that i spoke to was quite nice and the lecturer was a little scary.. but i take like abt 2 hrs to get there... that means everyday i'll be spending 4 hrs on the road... so tiring. hmm.. maybe i shall go stay with my grandmother in bedok...

saw laoshi ( ms ler ) just now with her laogong... linking arms and walking happily... awww. so sweet! x)

just saw someone i dislike online. urgh. spoiled my day. x(

22:51

Friday, February 21, 2003

went to ngee ann's open house with zhen today and it was pretty boring... maybe because i have no interest in any of the courses there. but the food there is really cheap and good! one ice-kachang for 50 cents? and chicken chop complete with salad, fries, baked beans and a bun for $2.80? cheapness! and it tastes yummy. saw my classmates there, all zao school, my jie and my primary school classmates too. after that went to town to meet eve and liz to catch a movie. we watched < chicago > but it wasnt very fantastic although there was a lot of singing and dancing... its supposed to be a musical... what am i talking about? kk, it is not bad, but i dont like the storyline. ahh... that sounds more like what i am trying to say. after the movie, eve and i went to far east, took a neo, bought my earrings, got to tangs and i bought a nike t-shirt.

eve and i were talking... some crap as always, but we talked about "serious stuff" too, like friendship and how fortunate we are.. pretty cool stuff.

going to tp's open house tmr, hope it will be good. guess ill do law management instead of hospitality management afterall... that is if i decided to enrol into a poly, which is like most probably.

20:52

Thursday, February 20, 2003

today's attendance at the end of the day was really pathetic. in the morning, there was only like the most 24 people, but by the end of the last period, only 10 were left... we thought that horseface would be pissed with the miserable number of people, so instead of leaving after econs, we went for history.. but he was in such a good mood... that annoying idiot.

am not going to school tmr... shall stay at home and rot unless someone calls to ask me out...

16:03

Wednesday, February 19, 2003

2 pieces of news, and of course, one good, the other bad...
( i ) the good : things are starting to get better. (",) boy, am i glad or what... just hope that it will last. - p r a y s -
( ii ) the bad : results are coming out next week... either the 26th or 28th. - f a i n t s -

there is going to be a class bbq next wk at east coast... hope the sun will shine brightly. there should be loads of food, cos those going have to pay 6 bucks.

15:52

Tuesday, February 18, 2003

dropped by thomson to develop the roll of film after tania's birthday celebration.. ( // happy birthday !!! ) efficiency or what? we took photos at suntec, but they aint very upclose cos those passerbys we asked stood so far away... those cows. my fav photos are those that i took when i went out with zhen and all that day... but that idiot's eyes were closed in the photo... =P nvm, hopefully there will be another chance. * wink*

// i dont deny the fact that i got off at the earlier stop because i couldnt stand next to you any longer... i was trying to get you outta my mind, but at the same time, i was failing miserably. i know that you are starting to get mad at me, and i dont blame you. like you said, i will get over it, somehow. but all i can say is that rome wasnt built in a day.

22:35

Listen For Love

There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets commmunicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.

Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different.

Any expression of a person's concern for another says I love you. Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface. We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely. We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express. The problem in listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love which the other person is using. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love
that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry.

We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. Listen for love and we will find that the world is
a very loving place, after all.

LOVE is a happy thing.
It makes us laugh.
It makes us sing.
It makes us sad.
It makes us cry.
It makes us seek the reason why.
It makes us take.
It makes us give.
Above all else it makes us LIVE.

It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present TO someone.

So remember ... If you love someone, tell them.

+ one of those forwarded emails, but i think its quite true. +

22:27

Monday, February 17, 2003

so bored... waiting for a call that will most probably never come.

// tania : happy advanced birthday !!! might be seeing you tmr, but nothing is confirmed...

20:02

Sunday, February 16, 2003

nothing much and my brother is chasing me away though ive been barely on for 5min.

// i know why i felt like crying after reading that email... cos since that day of truth, you havent given me a hug, and you know how important hugs are to me.

21:55

just came back from my aunt's hse... not bad, had 2 cups of coffee and cake. so full now. my cousins came this afternoon, but denise couldnt make it cos she had a match.. hope it went well.

was talking and messaging eve just now. she is equally mad, but i think she will simmer down soon. at least her problem aint as big as mine.. but she was talking crap as usual. but i think some of what she said has some truth in it... i put more of myself into relationships than that person, although there isnt really a relationship here. but i have to admit that despite the fact that that person has many people at his/her dispense and take us for granted, he/she still gives in a lot... to me, that is. ( oops eve... too bad for ya )

// i just read your email and i suddenly feel like crying. what is happening to me?

00:34

Friday, February 14, 2003

i H A T E valentine's day !!!!

before i write further and forget to thank the people who gave me presents in school today, ill thank them first.
// pam, mel : loads of hard work into the presents yar? thks a lot. still very worried that ill spoil them...
// val, vanessa, darryl : thks for the chocs and lolly.
// jie : you offered your hug.. but erm, no thks. lol.

+ i dont know why but i feel damn angry. i knew that you end earlier than me, so to prevent you from waiting too long, i left school early. but when i saw you, whatever joy i had just went "poof" and vanished into the air, you didnt even look at me in the eye when i arrived. okay, i thought maybe you had a bad day, so i tried to control myself. but the next 5 mins was filled with silence. you gave me my present with the "heck care" attitude. i was like getting mad. so when you got your stuff and said you were going off, i just took my stuff and left. and when i saw the card, it made me so mad, i felt like crying. a friendship card on valentine's day? like wtf ? i rather you hadnt gotten me the card at all. look, i know that you went to the trouble to get me a present, but i really cant handle what you wrote on the card. it's so unsuitable for valentine's day, not that i am expecting you to write mushy stuff, but at least write other things. urgh. i dont know anything anymore. i am so angry at you, but i know, this anger wont last, it never does. +

15:15

Thursday, February 13, 2003

didnt go to school today cos i wasnt feeling well... cough and cough and cough. hate being sick. - _ -
tmr is valentine's day... poor me got no one to celebrate with.. so i shall just come home and wallow in sorrow.

22:58

Wednesday, February 12, 2003

went for F4's concert last night and it was F4ntastic !!!! gosh, jerry looks damn good in real life man !!! - gushgush - initially i thought they only had looks but surprisingly they can sing as well. and jerry of course is the best - hee - my mum prefers vanness cos she says he has boyish looks and can dance. that lucky jeanetter got to touch vaness and she is complaining that she didnt get to touch jerry.... - fumes - i didnt get to touch anybody lorz... this stupidd woman got to go on stage cos she caught the poster jerry threw and she flirted with him, hugged him, kissed him..... - DOUBLE FUME - but she too short, only until his chest.... everybody was like screaming at her cos she was so yaya-papaya. and vanness gave a rose to some girl from the middle block in the $159 area... that lucky girl. everyone in the $159 areas were standing on their chairs and straining their necks trying to see who was the lucky gal.

went out today with zhen and all with a couple of her og friends... were supposed to watch < catch me if you can > but no seats, so we watched < final destination 2 > instead... it was not bad, but i covered my eyes in some parts like the part where this guy's body was cut into pieces ( head, torso, lower body ) by the flying wire.. then we went to take neo... duh! ( what outing is complete without taking neos ? ) came out not bad. then went out again in the evening for cny dinner, the food was good, we were all pretty filled up by the 5th dish. sent my brother back to hostel and my relative home... just reached home and i came straight online to blog.

oh yar, tania called halfway during the dinner, acting all bitchy as usual. haha. at least she made the effort to call.
// tania : hihi. i am doing fine, i guess. dont need to tell me who you called before me and what you said, cos i wont be jealous !!! you cow.

23:51

Tuesday, February 11, 2003

supposed to have history lesson now, but the teacher made the mistake of bringing us to the computer lab and leaving us to "finish up our project" and leaving this place. so we are all slacking away... as always.
yay! concert is tonight. cant wait!

12:46

Monday, February 10, 2003

p e was a little tiring today.. combined with 110 cos their p e teacher didnt come so mr ser made us all run from the entrance to the exit of the school 6 times... hope we dont combine again, cos when we dont, my class just goes to the gym and lift weights and slack... then play games during second period. today had to run and play games... tiring. but the games were pretty fun so it takes the tiredness away.
valentine's day is coming... havent got any gifts for my friends. d i e.

16:33

using the school's computer again since i have 2 free periods.

=============================================

i was so happy
when you agreed to meet me
i couldnt sleep
although i was dead tired

somehow
my mind kept replaying
the images of us
the good and the bad
mostly good though

i woke up early the next day
and went shopping
i walked and walked
but i couldnt find something
that was fit for you

time was running out
you were coming soon
so i picked second best
and gave it to you
you said you liked it
it made my day

sometimes i wonder
why i feel this way
never thought i would turn out this way
but i did
i guess i could blame god
for playing such a trick on me
or i could blame myself
for falling into this endless pit

emotions are a rollercoaster ride
sometimes it depends
whether you choose to watch from afar
or to board the ride
and let it turn you
upside down inside out
i chose the latter.

11:19

Sunday, February 09, 2003

i am HAPPY shalala ~~~~ but a little angry lah but shant be angry cos i am so so happy today. x )
let's see what can make me so happy that i forgot to be angry... went out with penguin today. (",) eve came along and since penguin didnt inform me beforehand, i didnt get eve a valentine's day pressie... but got penguin a card, a message in the bottle and a keychain. total abt 20 bucks. not very ex but at least she liked it... i think. went to breeks for lunch and took photos there... ( //penguin : dont forget to develop for me )
after walking for ages, we finally decided to go take neo, but this dumb guy just had to appear and tempt us with 10 bucks for helping him do a survey, so penguina and eve went to do it. took a while so in the end didnt go take cos i had to meet my mum and buy our new phones then rush home cos got dinner tonight.
//eve : so feel like murdering you !!! any idea how hard it is to invite ms sih out??? but im in a good mood, so my angry shall reduced by a little... xP
well, the other good thing is that i finally got my 6610 but at the expense of my 8250, cos i traded in... the 8250 has sentimental value cos it was my first phone... so a bit sad...
//penguin : now you have to go out with me another day to take neo and gimme my v day pressie. so ill be waiting for your call, your turn to initiate. hee.

23:13

Friday, February 07, 2003

the latest update : i am going for the "faggot4" concert... with my mummy. so she has to suffer through 105 min of girlie guys singing and dancing... bought the newest and most expensive tix availabe : $159 (sitting ones). madness i know but the other choice is the $149 which is standing tix and must go queue up tonight to get a no, so that on the day itself, you line up according to no and not according to how early you start lining up. so at least i am guaranteed a seat cos i am so not going to line up for a no. well, now is to see whether my mum's money was worthwhile.

anywayz, just came back from bish with my mum, and we spent like $112 at a short... best. must start to save a little bit, so that my mum will have $$$ to get me, i mean us (she desperately needs a new one) both a new phone each. 6610 -- here i come! x )

17:45

in the school's comp lab... they just changed the computers, so they are all new and fast not lagging like those in the library. supposed to be doing lit research but lazy me obviously isnt, but thinking whether i should go for the concert. must decide soon, cos seats are running out and i need to find somebody to go with me.

09:15

Thursday, February 06, 2003

happyhappyhappy~~~ x ) received a very unexpected sms today during econs lecture from longtimenoseeandhearmydearienoriza!!!! she got a phone... finally and msged to see if i am still alive and kicking... well, i am glad to hear that she is doing alright in aj, usmartass. miss her too cos like havent been speaking much too her since mid sec3... -sighz-
//noriza : heyheyhey!!! now that we both have each other's number, must arange to go out and catch up yar? and of cos to take neosneosneos!!! haha. you take care sweetie! *muackz* and my famous hug... *hUgZ* (",) lol. going crazy with happiness. and if you have nicky's hp no, pls give me cos i am missin' her too... thks.

16:30

Wednesday, February 05, 2003

had a gongxi-raya concert in school today... it lasted like only 1 period and it was at the end of the day, so had to endure all the yucky subjects. found out that there will be an econs test next week... -gulp- and the history project is due on monday. -double gulp- my class did a modern dance and some of the guyz lifted up signs saying "marry me!", "zav, im pregnant!" etc while zav was performing... blink182 style... damn funny especially the pregnant one cos it was a guy who held it up... lol.
its gonna be a loonnng day tmr.... -snooze-

16:42

Tuesday, February 04, 2003

*yummy* just came back from chicken rice and strawberry strudel... east meets west but its so delicious! *smacks lips* my cousin bought durian strudel... shall have it tonight... gosh. putting on so much weight this festive season after losing them during the december hols...
anywayz, today was another slacking day.. but it is slightly better than the past week.. hope it gets better. *prays*

15:51

Monday, February 03, 2003

//pam : if you ever visit here, just want to say that its my fault for being all attitude. guess i am just being a major pain in the ass. erm.... and i hope that we will be alright soon cos i really treasure our friendship. hope it doesnt go down the drain cos of me.

00:40

Sunday, February 02, 2003

just came back from visiting a couple of relatives and found out that my cousin, justin, who is the same age as me just flew off yesterday to sydney to study... i am guessing its because he didnt make it for first three months so his parents send him overseas to study. in my current situation, i wish i was flying off too. X (
looking on the brighter side... hang on. there isnt any brighter side. so too bad.

16:45

Saturday, February 01, 2003

i have tried to be my normal self... really. but somehow, the other parties didnt think too much about it, so i gave up and became all attitude again.
anywayz, today was absolutely boring. didnt see a lot of relatives... which means lesser red packets means lesser money. bleah. nvm, get to see denise tmr.
//eve : try and get over it... it was never meant to be.