Monday, March 31, 2003
since ms val complained that my blog is so short today, shall utter some nonsense...
did nothing much today... just went through my sec3 geog notes on natural vegetation, cos its included in a level geog... *wonders* wasnt even half as hardworking when i was in sec4. econs is sooo boring. tried going through it but never got past the 4th sheet of notes (the notes are printed one-sided... does that tell you how boring it is?) well, thats my day which of course includes eating, sleeping and watching tv..
tmr's agenda :
# *** guniangs bitching day *** at fullerton at 1430
- the guniangs will be sipping tea and muching on dainty sandwiches and doing what they do best,
bitching. -
# " Oliver " at the esplanade at 2000
- no arrangements is made as yet... going with the cow and the bimbo... should be funnn~ -
23:26
HAPPY***BIRTHDAY !!!
from cuddles to oscar.... *wink* haha.
19:06
Sunday, March 30, 2003
after like centuries, i finally got to sit in the car with my brother as driver... he drove my cousin and i to the photocopying shop where it took 3 hrs for them to photocopy bri's notes. so while waiting, we went to bish and walked around... i felt so outdated, bish has changed so much, popular is gonna be there, music junction is moving out, giftland is now mini toons... but the happiest new thing i saw was a nice neo machine below the arcade... *evil grin* later, we caught < iron ladies 2 >, gosh, major faggots! all the hair, makeup, girly clothes, etc.... amused yet a little disgusted, but well, its just a movie.
shall go take a cold shower and start on that thick pile of notes sitting on my table... ill just faint if the teachers gives out the exact notes for those who werent there for first 3 months. adidos!
20:43
Saturday, March 29, 2003
went to tp to meet bri to borrow her notes, so that i could try and catch up as mauch as i can during this week of hol since i learnt nothing during the first three months... there were a lot of notes, so i thought it included gp, cl, geog, econs, but when i took them out to see, lo and behold! it only consisted of 2 piles, econs and geog. the geog pile was reallllly thick. gosh, im so dead. have to go photocopy all the notes and slowly read through. had lunch at fiesta... softshell crab... yum!
spent the late afternoon (could have been earlier hadnt ms sih called... but im glad she called. *grin*) copying geog lecture notes.. in total, i have written dont-know-how- many-times the amount i wrote during the first 3 months in that screwed up school.. so proud of myself. hee. mummy made bird nest soup with longan... yummm!!!
its back to copying the last sheet of lecture notes (finally!) and cos my brother is chasing me away... hope my mum will let me go out on mon, then maybe i can celebrate val's birthday with her... (",)
23:05
Friday, March 28, 2003
my og outing was pretty okay today... except for the occasional suaning from baker and grace. apparently a lot of people were supposed to turn up, esp the cheerleaders... in the end, only baker, grace, aaron, benjamin, this other guy whose name i dont know how to spell and me. but i prefer smaller group outing, otherwise it will take forever to decide on where to go, what to do. started off with lunch at canadian pizza (where we sat for close to 2.5hrs) then
at cine. benjamin lost his wallet... hope someone finds it soon and returns it. then we had dinner at the foodcourt at cine, and my favourite : took a neo!!! haha.
benjamin and grace were like teasing aaron major... calling him names, but it was pretty fun. haha. and grace and baker saboed me... making me sit next to aaron during the movie when i was supposed to sit in between them. after the movie, they kept giving me this look and grace was like, "hope you looked at the screen more than something else...(laughs)" urgh.
guess that was my day... didnt go for the musical in the end... (sorry tan!) oh yar, saw pam today. ( hey pam, glad to see you today, but you looked a little under the weather... take care k?) *thinks* i feel that i left sth out, but i cant remember what... anyway, i gtg... my brother came home unannounced, so i gotta evacuate now. byeee.
22:01
Thursday, March 27, 2003
stupid SARS.... so hate you... got og outing tmr, but my mum is really very unenthu abt it cos of the stupid virus going around.. well, still going anyhow cos i promised baker already. i think i wont be able to go for the musical tmr... damn. well, aaron called just now and he was damn funny...
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aaron : tmr og outing... can u come?
me : i should think so
aaron : you get sars not my problem ah
me : if i get it, you will be the first person i pass it to, you idiot
aaron : (laughs)
blah blah blah...
aaron : dont msg me tmr and say u not coming... if you dont come, you have to buy me a box of ferro roches
me : okay... leave the wrappers for you
aaron : eh wau lao, i want the chocolates!
me : can i get u hershey kisses instead?
aaron : (laughs) why you want to get me hershey kisses?
me : eh no hidden meaning k
aaron : (laughs) i never said there was a hidden meaning... but why hershey kisses?
me : (laughs) cos its nice?
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kk, i know it sounds lame, but ive been cooped at home all day long with nothing to do... so forgive my lameness. did receive a call that made my day, but i totally spoilt it by speaking very little... i find that i have lesser common topics with the caller cos all the caller talks about is things that ive been hearing for weeks... gosh, becoming so self-centered.... so scared that we will starting drifting apart. fuck. im sorry.
23:28
Wednesday, March 26, 2003
my ogl (aaron) bought candy from mini toons for us... so sweet right? grace, denise, baker and i couldnt keep our hands outta the bag... greedy us. found out our classes today ( 1t04 ), luckily grace is in the same class as me. my home tutor, ms giam is pretty cool... she allows streaked hair that aint too obvious and double earrings as long as they aint at the top of the ear, but she's pretty strict on the hp... quote " i see, i take ". so better not mess around with her.
today's games sucked.. baker and i were just major slacking, and the enthu ones in our og werent very enthu today cos the queen of enthus didnt come... had cca selection today, not really selection for netball, cos the coach said that all the newcomers will join the club first till tournaments are over then they will start picking people to join the school team.. but we played today and it was raining. its been such a long time since ive perspire so much... felt good after that.
aaron called just now... said we might have an og outing on friday.. yay! must remember to bring my cammie, then can take photo with the other 3 slacker friends of mine. haha.
no school till 6 april. good or bad? i dont know.
// deeearieeee : know u are pretty upset/pissed/agitated/fuckedup but things happen for a reason... who knows maybe you will be the top scorer there at the end of next year... ya, im lying... but like you said, "nothing goes according to plan", you might love it there after sth happens... cheer up k? seeing you so down makes me feel horrible too.
23:31
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
had orientation today.... wasnt very fantastic, havent had an orientation where it was absolutely fun. my og (delphinus headed by aaron and benjamin) is dominated by ij girls.. was the only ijtp until baker came along and joined me. (",) then the 2 of us and these 2 other girls (grace from stnicks and denise from stc) are the slackers in our og while this bunch of 5-6 ij girls are the enthu ones in my og... major difference in attitudes. mass dance was major spastic, we ended up girls partnering girls (ie only in my og) and vice versa... quite funny seeing the guys putting their hands on each others' waists... haha. must bring 44 bucks for orientation package tmr for second intake while the first intake only need to pay 8 bucks... major diff. and also money for school uniform. bleah. one thing that i really dislike about this school is that no hps allowed! urgh. its back to illegal bringing and using in the school compound... damn.
tmr is cca selection, gonna join netball again although i heard that it aint very fantastic and that the recreational one is major cheena... unless i can find another cca that interests me.
off to lalaland again for me. night.
22:36
Monday, March 24, 2003
today was the first day at school, ij girls everywhere... i think if they make all the ij girls sit together, we'll fill up at least a quarter of the audi/hall. nothing much occured today except listen to teachers and brother paul talk and talk and talk... and we had to choose our combi today on the spot, its like so little time to think and we had to register for our combi online but quite a few pple's name werent in the system (including me), so we had to do it manually. my subject combi was :
- geog, lit, econs
- geog, maths, econs
-lit, maths, econs
decided not to take chinese afterall... was thinking that if i do well in the first round of exams, i can drop chinese and concentrate on my other subjects. the geog teacher that spoke to us today (gail ng) was quite nice but the history teacher was soo annoying.
to all the pple i know whom i saw in school today, hhheeeeyyyyy !!!!!!
hope the rest of you had a good day in school... im missing you pple already.
16:24
Sunday, March 23, 2003
summary of yest's outing (pam's birthday celebration) :
- went to azaria's house
- dinner at the glass house -- fish&co
- pam had to the cream thing
- went down to boat/clark quay and walked around
- met tan who was working... poor thing
- pam and azaria went home
- val, wyn and i went to esplanade and sat there and drowned our sorrows...
- walked to fullerton before we finally got a cab
- nice nice taxi driver was chatting with us about tunafish, gin, education but i think we wrecked his car doors... haha
//val and wyn : really sorry for doing what i did cos if i didnt do what i did, it would have been a better night for everyone... sorry. )=
//val : we werent exactly best of friends before but i guess after last night, we are kinda closer now... thks for letting me be there and i hope that im not next on ur have-to-kill list.. ill be here for u if u need to bitch ya?
//wyn : hope u are feeling better... *ruffles hair* ill be here if u need me, just give me a call, but absolutely no fagging and drinking ya? bimbos forever. guess i wont be seeing u in tp unless i apply next yr.. hopefully i dont have to. but u have a good time goggling at those chiobus. haha.
22:55
Saturday, March 22, 2003
heyhey pam...
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y !!!
hope u enjoy yourself today and receive loads of presents.. will be seeing you later at the glass house ya? +muacks+
12:07
urghh. i didnt get my first choice.... fuck.
09:27
Friday, March 21, 2003
im here to yak a little before my brother gets home... nvm. theres always my cousin's computer next door... *evil grin* shall go pay her a visit later.
had nothing to do today, so my thoughts ran wild... i was just thinking that life is full of regrets, especially mine. the number of things ive done or said wrong is countless. its like, at that instant you think you are right and everyone else is wrong, but as time passes, you start to ponder whether you were right in the first place despite the fact that you were proven right. im uttering nonsense that i myself think there's sth wrong with me.
i question my decision to apply for a jc yet again... i did so initially bcos i was emotionally unstable ( to those who know what im talking abt, im regretting ) and to make myself feel better, i told myself that tp was too far away and i would be spending too much time on the road instead of using that time to study or rest. but now as i think about it, i realise that if something really interest me that much, ill go all out to get it... but i let my emotions get in the way and i made a wrong decision. now the only way to right the wrong would be to go to tp and ask if they will take me in although jae is over... but i guess ill give myself a chance and try to see if jc life is my cup of tea first before i start talking to principals and making phone calls.
im contradicting myself... kk, ill shuddup right this instant.
one more thing... i miss you. everytime i want to pick the phone to call you, i wonder what is there to talk about... nothing important. so i never dial your number. ahh. fuck.
20:37
as you all can see, ive changed my template... nothing-better-to-do me decided to do so after seeing eden's new pretty bubbles template. well, this time i took a shorter time but my archives page still remains the same as it was in the previous template. i think the entries are a little to bold, looks like the date, cant differentiate.. heck. cant be bothered anymore. but all black looks pretty cool huh? haha.
why do i have the sinking feeling that eve might be giving me a morning call later?? hopefully not.
01:09
Thursday, March 20, 2003
sooooo bored and i have a headache...
ms evelyn tan called me at 1150 this morning, claiming that it was already 1200... utter rubbish. after that i couldnt get back to sleep... grr. now im major grouchy. this is the result of not letting me sleep till im satisfied and waking me up when im asleep. *hits eve on the head*
14:30
just came back from my class bbq... its not really a class bbq but the big group of people that make up the majority in 111... it was pretty ok though we took a super long time to start the fire cos the wind was superrr strong. nothing much to say.. the usual that happens at a bbq. i ended up cooking the last 3 rounds of chicken wings, so whoever brought the chicken home and gets a tummyache, too bad for u. haha. we left the bbq area sooo messy, tissue, plastic bags, chicken bones all over... poor cleaner who has to clear the area.
was sitting by the beach just now and enjoying the sea breeze... gosh. it felt so good, as though the wind was blowing my troubles away.. then my nice xiao mei brought me a chicken wing that she specially grilled for me. so sweet of her. then eve called and i was talking to her abt her chris... actually i was listening to her talk about chris and how well she played, blahblahblah... *rolls eyes* haha. and of course was talking abt me.... my friend thought i was going crazy cos i was talking and got so agitated and was jumping around and hitting the grill, she told me to cool down and that the chicken didnt offend me in anyway... oops.
now i smell nice and clean... johnsons&johnsons baby bath.. sitting in front of the computer and blogging and chatting (as usual) and finishing up the remaining half bottle of green tea.
//eve : dont u DARE call me later when im still sleeping... ill seriously kill you whether i pick up the call or not. no calls before 1300!
00:50
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
went to sentosa today to suntan... a little darker now but still not as dark as emily... she got tanned so fast yet she kept on adding more suntan oil to herself... my shoulders hurt.. they are so gonna peel. we tanned and went into the sea, came out, tanned a little more, and went back in... for like 3 hrs.. pretty fun. but im still not satisfied with my tan! urgh. we finally left, we went to sakae at wheellock to eat and spent like 86 bucks there... major ex. but yummy sashimi and soft-shell crab.
after that, met tan at thomson... had thai food but i didnt finish my food cos i still had sakae in my tummy... then wyn came and the 2 twits went to swensens and ordered ice cream and were playing with their food... sigh. kids. then we walked to my place and ms tania tan decides to come to my place and say hi to my mum, and they jeopardised my family till 2300. we were talking abt ... stuff and taking photos and dont know doing what. quite fun.
oliver has been booked... on a school night. hopefully my mum will let me go......... *prays*
much more to say, but im burnt. my brains are fried. total crap.
dont want to fight anymore.
i want to give up but my head isnt listening cos my heart is ruling.
00:35
Monday, March 17, 2003
my sleep was disrupted by ms evelyn tan at 0245 this morning.... grrr. thought what emergency she had.. it was only cos she couldnt get to sleep... that girl. and she disrupts my sleep yet another time at 10+ this morning and says : "ahhh, you still in bed ah? zhu leh u..." then we yak a little and decided to meet at thomson's starbucks to drink coffee... we talk somemore then she leaves to go meet her friend.
good good me came home and tried to understand my econs notes, but dumb dumb me still doesnt understand a single thing... and chinese is starting to look alien to me too... die.
hmm... val and all gonna go sentosa tmr.. still deciding whether to go or not due to some reasons... see how. maybe i should not think so much and just go, but worrier me is worrying that things might not turn out well... sighz.
22:06
Sunday, March 16, 2003
i suddenly feel so lucky, so loved... thks to you, but it was at your expense.
// hey you, the one with the arm stuck on your head (private joke)... haha. hope you'll feel better soon and dont forget what i told you... i'll really not friend you if you continue doing what you are doing right this moment. take care! *hughughug*
23:16
went to woodlands to walk walk just now, then had dinner at seoul garden with my cousin.. so full now. the best thing is, she still can eat... she is currently waiting for suppertime so that she can eat her durian puffs.... that greedy ass.
tan called me just now to ask me go watch oliver with her... had to say yes.. see she so poor thing... haha. lets see whether my mum will let me go..
overall, today isnt a very good day. i keep asking myself whether i was oversensitive or just being a bitch on friday, which resulted to me pulling a black face during the bbq.. i am not sure. all i know is that i get jealous easily and pretty possessive towards people whom matter to me sooooo much that i myself think im overdoing it sometimes. well, thats me.
22:04
Saturday, March 15, 2003
just woke up at 2 when tan called me.... sucha pig i am. tiredness.
yest's mass was so-so... i miss the times when i was in the school uniform sitting there singing the hymns.. the feeling was different when in home clothes and no longer part of the school. took a lift from mrs alex to thomson sec cos we were too lazy to walk.. still cant believe that mrs alex is so happy with my lit results... haiz. food at reception was pretty good.
the bbq was quite ok... all thks to the chef, ms tania tan. but the prep before that was... hilarious. tan and i went to ntuc and we got into the queue thrice before we finally got all our stuff and paid for them. and we stuffed the 2 bags of marniated meat into the ice pack,so that it wont spoil and caused a big pool of water on the teacher's table in the classroom when the ice melted... oops. then mamateo, pat-tan, tan, wyn and i ended up sleeping in the hod room in various postions, but cos the air-con wasnt on, it was a little warm.. we were supposed to use the electric grill but it didnt work, lights would go off everytime we turned on the switch, so we got pots and pans from the canteen, poor me had to scrub them (was venting some anger at the same time) then we realised the cruel truth : no gas supply. *slaps forehead* so back to the traditional way it was, charcoal and firestarters.
later on, the people started arriving and the food was cooking. the sausages were yummy! but i wasnt feeling well, first time in my life getting gastric... stop gloating tania tan!
it was so funny when mamateo and all were trying to hide the booze from ms tan... lol. played with sparklers after everything was packed up.. it was so nice, seeing the sparks fly.
//tania : i guess what you said was true, i was a little jealous abt what happened in thomson sec but not during the bbq... sorry for deserting you and going off to sit by myself. but the food was REALLY good (must suck up a little,, hee) hope what you said about the concerned part is true, cos i really didnt feel it yest.
//wyn : thks again for keeping me company, getting me the medicine and expressing concern... absolute sweetness! (",) and it was really funny when you hid under the table in the hod room, refusing to eat the bread... be honoured that i fed you and keeping a lookout for the cockroaches in the toilet. haha. you take care and dont be sad anymore... learn how to say no ya?.. (you get what i mean?)
17:21
Thursday, March 13, 2003
last day in oi....
the days in oi are finally over. boy, am i glad to get out of there. my initial intentions were to go there for 3 months ( cos dumb me didnt do well for my prelims ) and learn something so that if i end up in a jc, i wont be too far behind. but after this time in oi, i think what i've learnt nothing.. its as though i was bumming around for 3 months, just that i have to get up at 6am in the morning everyday to go to school and slack. the only chinese characters i've written are my chinese name. thats all. and im planning to take chinese at 'A's... luckily they dont start teaching till school starts next term, or im seriously screwed.
but i enjoy the time with my classmates... (zav, joel, sashi, suren, darryl, daniel, vicknes, becky, angeline, etc ) they are all one funny, naughty and vulgar bunch. they are forever zaoing school, and cos they make up the majority of the class, after the leave, attendance decreases drastically. gonna miss them. and also the all girls group : ede, meihua, nessa, jeanette, michelle, all so cute and funny. hope everyone gets into the school/course they want.
going back to ij tmr for mass.. cant wait to see everybody.
my mum is giving me attitude... its pissing me off. why? cos i dont even know what i did wrong... its either that cos she pissed at me cos my dad pissed her off. wth.
22:04
Wednesday, March 12, 2003
had a looong talk with tan last night... phone bill gonna be rocket high. but nvm.
i seriously think pool is not my cup of tea... i totally suck at it. but im a happy happy girl today. its amazing how little things can make me so happy. *grin*
//tania tan : dont forget what i told u abt the messages ar... will get jealous k.. haha.
just realised that my entries are getting shorter and shorter... no elaboration. well, heck, im happy today!
23:47
Tuesday, March 11, 2003
went to my classmate's house today and we watched < catch me if you can > it was a pretty nice show..
cant wait to go back to ij on friday... see all my friends whom i miss so much.
21:53
Monday, March 10, 2003
im sorry i never thought about your feelings before i wrote what i wrote. that's just me, an insensitive bitch.
i only have 3 things to say to you:
sorry. thank you. i love you.
22:33
just reached home and a piece of advice to you people out there... coffee on an empty stomach is a big no-no... feel nauseous now.
i am tired. emotionally and physically.
15:45
Saturday, March 08, 2003
nothing much happened today. the usual, slept till 1300, then watched vcds and my mum came home with this real yummy cornbeef sandwich.. yummilicious. watched more vcds and went to sleep before i got up and went out for dinner. major pig i know. then i saw jasmine at suntec.. didnt even see her, just heard someone calling me. had quite a nice dinner, the double-boiled soup was sooo nice. *sighz* greedy me. then tania called me and asked me to meet her and pam at toa payoh, so i rushed over and we sat at orange julius discussing about the bbq. we have like so much food but so little people we are inviting. then grace came along and we went to ntuc and pam and grace bought some candy. came home after that. stuppid 163 took sucha long time.
online now... guess what? quarrelsome and nothing better to do me is picking a fight. damn. so hate this feeling. *sob*
+nowuknowiaintoveruwhatsurreactionmustbefreakedout+
23:42
Friday, March 07, 2003
so freaking pissed off with this fucking bastard who called me this morning and he was like "fuck you bitch" and all vulgarities. hung up on him immediately. no use talking to these assholes who have nothing better to do than to prank call people. get a life man. too bad it was private number, or i will either report to the police and prank call that loser back, but that will lower me to his standard, so reporting would be a better idea. and he called like quite a few times...
talking about happier things, went to ritz today for lunch... ate until so full.. *smacks lips* but i prefer the dinner there... more variety. the wine was tops! haha, the waiter didnt know i was underage, so he happily gave us the wine. then my mum and i went all the way to clementi.. spent like 100+ bucks at the cloth shop, then i bought a top from gio, a pair of sandals, and 2 vcds.. spent loads today. but didnt get to take neo or starshots cos we didnt go to town.
well, the best piece of news i've received today is that my evadearest mushroom might be coming back in july!!! *woohoo* can finally get to see her and go on a neo spree! haha.
21:00
Thursday, March 06, 2003
today was quite an okay day... pretty slack. then again, when was oi ever not slack?
the people in my class did pretty alright.. so happy for them. (",) hope they all get into the schools/courses they want.
well, this entry is supposedly to scold that penguin for being such an ass for refusing to tell me her first choice. but since i am oh-so-nice, *all around faints* i shall not. well, no matter what, hope she will get into her first choice, and i wont see her in ny or cj... good.
//jeanette & vannessa : dont forget you are sworn to secrecy !!!!
22:05
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
hey dan...
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y !!!
hope u have fun and stop being so stubborn... x)
p.s : i take back the flying kiss and dont ask for the impossible... i will really fry if i go get the sun. xP
01:27
i have F I N A L L Y made up my mind and registered for JAE.
* all who have suffered under yan's indecisiveness rejoice *
well, now its up to the school to see if they want a lousy student like me to drive their teachers crazy with my dumbness.
we shall sit back and wait for posting to be out on 22nd March 2003.
00:59
Tuesday, March 04, 2003
i am a happy girl !!! x) hee. cos i went on a neo spree today with jasmine. we took 5 neos and 1 card.. woohoo!!! haha. and after that we did one of those roadside drawings... damn spastic i know, but it was kinda fun. lol. going crazy already.. lalala~~ *giggle* talked to jasmine and found out that we both fell for people that we shouldnt have and both are one-sided.. but like what i told jasmine, hers is complicated on the surface but mine is complicated emotionally. x( anyhow, guess both of us will just have to let time heal the wounds although mine will definitely take a longer time... * s i g h z z z *
anyhow... i have changed my mind again. yes, indecisive and fickle-minded yan has changed her mind yet another time. i guess ill be applying for jc instead of poly now... bcos i am afraid that if i take the law course in tp, i might get tired of it halfway and screw up my future and not be able to get into a university next time, so ill go to jc and study then go on to university and hopefully be able to do psychology. please pray that i dont change my mind again.... well, hopefully, ny will take me in. lets wait and see.
18:13
Monday, March 03, 2003
Have You Ever by Brandy
[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get to their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]
Have you ever found that one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do anything to look into her eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed you eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]
What I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What I gotta do to to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]
// the lyrics sorta summerises what i think. //
i thought i had gotten out of the pit
but i guess i havent.
after all, i fell into the bottomless pit of love
17:39
Sunday, March 02, 2003
went to cut my hair today... turned out pretty okay. at least i dont have to disguise myself when i walk on the streets. nothing much happening. no school till wednesday. x) but its time to sit down and think about my future... is it gonna be poly or jc? people have told me that i am a hands-on kinda person, thus i should go poly. people have told me i should go jc cos they are going. people have told me that i should do law. people have told me not to do law. *sighz* decisions, decisions, decisions. well, i guess it is my life, so i should make a choice that is mine alone, without any influence from anyone, no matter who. so that if i ever screw up my future, it will be my fault and there will be no finger-pointing.
we shall see....
21:27
urgh. fuck you. what gives you the right to make me happy one moment and pissed the next? i hate this feeling. i hate it.. dammnit. x(
21:22
Saturday, March 01, 2003
just some thoughts of the day..
while i was out with azaria and tania last night, tania said some wise words... like "wow" right? wise words coming out of tania's mouth... x) she said that when that there has to be something special about that someone, thats why you will like them. it might be the way they stand, the way they talk, the way they look at things...
it made me wonder why did i ever like you in the first place? is it cos of how you have that penetrating look when you look at me sometimes, making me wonder if you can read my mind, or is it cos i admire that you have expectations of yourself and you work towards it, or is it cos you make me laugh with your horrendous singing and nonsensical crap you say, or is it because i know you will be there for me no matter what? till now, i still cant figure out what is that special thing about you. i just want to say that when i told you what i did, i didnt expect any promises or anything from you, the freaked out part was totally expected though.. but i guess like what tania said is pretty true, " it's to get a load of the mind". but no matter what, i still love you. as a friend or still that way, you go figure. xP
16:38
to all my friends who collected their results, be it good or bad, you did your best.
// eden : gosh! you got 8 pts. i am so proud of you... (",) i love you! +muack+
// azaria : told you not to worry cos you will do well... wasnt i right? guess what eden said is pretty true, i was more worried about your results than i was about mine... cos i know that you will be very unhappy if you dont get what you think you should get. but i am really happy for you. i love you too.
// jasmine : heyheyhey gurong! told ya aj would wanna keep you.. cos you will bring glory to their school. continue to work hard and im sorry that that "idiot" is such an idiot.
// eve : yoz, glad you did pretty well too... maybe ill see you in ny, i dont know. but no matter where you end up, i know you will drive your teachers crazy. haha.
// bri, liz, zhen : you guys did pretty well too. im happy for you people.
// noriza : smaartass you... but i am glad you got what you got... thks for being happy for me too.
// pam and tania : so happy that 4 of us made it... shows that our late night studying and terrorising mama teo and ms tan didnt go down to waste ya? and the amount of $$
we spent to maintain our food locker. god. miss the times we studied together... i love you people forever. x)
// 2/1 people : you guys totally rock man! all of you did so well !!! gosh. hope you people will get into a good school and rock others' life the way you people rocked mine.
// 4/3 : hey people, glad our class did pretty well. only 1 failure for amaths. thats fantastic if you ask me...
// daniel : hey, i think what you got is pretty good, dont be too harsh on yourself... hope you didnt stare too long at the wall... x)
// cg 111 : hope you people did okay. you guys are one nutty class.
// those that i forgot to mention, hope you people did well too. //
people whom i must thank no matter what :
// mr eric tan : thanks for having faith in me, giving me confidence to do well in my emaths and trying your best to help me pass my amaths. i didnt do very well for amaths, but i finally passed with a 5.
// mrs lee : thanks for helping me with my geog.. managed to get out of the F9 zone and moved on to a C5 before i clinched an unexpected B3 for my Os.
// mrs alex : you believed in me and i am very touched by your efforts to help me get an A for my lit. but i am sorry that i only managed to get a B3... i hope that you wont be too disappointed. but thank you for sacrificing your time to help me.
// mama teo : thanks for staying back with us so that we can study till late. arent you glad your efforts didnt go to waste? haha. you are one mad woman ya know? and please eat your meals and your medicine... xP
// ms tan : thanks for helping us in our physics and letting us watch < veggietales > when we were going crazy with studying.
// azaria, pam, tania : thanks a million for making studying not seem like a chore and helping me when i needed help... which is like most of the time. *hee* really really glad that you guys did well and i hope that no matter what route you take in future, we will always be friends. + muacckkkkez +
// again, whoever i forgot, really sorry... xP
01:50
today was the day of truth... surprisingly, i was extremely calm, even to the last moment when it was my turn to get my results and i saw what i got. 16 points. that good or bad, i really dont know. but i guess it is pretty good, cos when my mum heard what i got, she cried while i remained emotionless... like, whats happening to me? i am usually the worrier, but i seriously couldnt get myself to worry about my results. i guess the main thing now is to reconsider my options although i am still pretty enthu about law in tp... seriously, i was very very suprised to see that i got a 3 for geog and a 5 for amaths, cos i really suck at those 2 subjects.. ask anybody and they will tell you how bad i am. this shows that cambridge markers are reall lenient.
went out with azaria and tania after staying in school... pretty fun. we took neos and i finally took the card with azaria after centuries... and making a fool outta ourselves as usual. went to olio dome to drink coffee then came home around 11.
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