Thursday, July 31, 2003
just got home...
the weather is
hothothot!
to think those people are still having their vb match now...
seem to have lost my keys..
hopefully i find them soon,
its not the key that is impt to me,
but the 2 keychains hanging on it.
off to bathe and sleep.
tonight got plenty to study.
geog drq test tmr.
lects 1-6 + handout 1.
-faints-
maybe ill come online again later...
got to do research for gp.
juvenile crime.
pretty cool.
// kk (if you really dropped by) : hihi!! -waves-
17:21
supposed to let 2 guest bloggers (kenneth & sweets) blog...
but after seeing what they wrote,
NO WAY!!!
totally spoils my reputation.
and the things they write...
HORRENDOUS!!!
supposed to be doing research for gp on juvenile crime,
but blogging more impt.
haha.
todays recess was pretty good..
hee.
off to see eyecandy do his work or should i say slack.
tata.
14:11
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
suppposed to be doing my econs essay outline for tmr.
but my head isnt working...
so tired.
had to do mock 2.4km today...
my timing was terrible but
i still managed to pass.
-wobbly legs-
nothing interesting occuring in my life,
so i shall end here.
just one last note.
seeing someone get breakfast this morning
brought back good memories...
16:18
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
today was another sleepy day.
had pw block period.
copied the notes they showed on the screen,
in the end..
its all found in the pw task booklet.
waste of time.
could have used that time to catch up on my sleep.
eyecandy plentyplenty today.
recess. after recess. after school.
looks good when playing vb.
hmmm, nothing much.
econs test tmr.
geog test on fri.
better get home and start studying...
where are my parents???
-rubs eyes-
sleeeeeepy.
18:56
Monday, July 28, 2003
today is sucha sleepy day...
was sleeping during almost every lesson.
-yawnyawn-
mass pe was fun today.. haha.
seeing people get all tangled up with their own legs...
its damn funny.
at least the steps arent that spastic,
maybe except for that "chicken" part.
ate a lot today during my breaks.
first break : 100+ and pizza bread
second break : meepok + chickenpie + watermelonorange juice.
watermelonorange juice is
HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!
its
veryveryvery yummmy!!!
very refreshing too.
off to have my dinner.
im hungry again!
hmmm, maybe i have worms in my tummy..
haha.
18:34
Sunday, July 27, 2003
just got back from my outing with jasmine and eden.. it was pretty okay. we took like 4 neos and some photos... all the neos came out good. and we each bought a "pure milk" tshirt. same design but different colours. jasmine dragged us all the way to bishan park to see her friends and out of the entire taxi fare, about 2 bucks was spent on going around bishan park... they wanted to cycle, so i came back first. didnt want to cycle in jeans and flipflops.
hanging around to see whether im going out for dinner with my mum. pretty tired and just wanna plop into bed and go off to dreamland.. but i still got some homework uncompleted so no naps today.
my brother got himself a digi too.. so now we both have our own, no need to share. think his is pretty cool... able to record with sound, but mine cant... and its much silmer than my olympus.
17:56
Saturday, July 26, 2003
most probably going out tmr with my 2 besties..
cant wait!
-excited-
the quality time ill be spending with them
and not forgetting the impt neo spree...
oh man!
counting down to the time ill be seeing them.
although i cant be out for too long
(maybe from 12+ to about 5)
but the thought of seeing them,
will most probably be the best thing that has happened to me this week.
-smilesmilesmilesmilesmile-
adrenaline rush.
23:03
just got back from having a great time shopping with my mum... she's pretty broke now.
i bought :
>> 2 pairs of slippers ( roxy & reef ) [$61]
>> quiksilver tshirt [$26]
>> a pair of shorts [$49]
>> black tee [$16]
>> 3 sets of color pens [$10]
and food of course!!!
and my mum bought a bag for herself too...
ptm today was much better than i expected but i know now for a fact that my mum is really worried that i wont be able to pull my grades up enough to get promoted... but she and msgiam both have faith that i can do it, so ill try my best not to disappoint them. seriously speaking, i was quite surprised that msgiam noticed that im the kind that doesnt do well for a particular subject cos i dont like the teacher... not many teachers i had in the past knew, they just thought i was dumb. oh well, she and my mum had a fun time talking.. with laughter coming outta them every few minutes. i think they were the only ones who spoke as though they were having a casual chitchat instead of having a parent-teacher meeting... every other parent in the hall was so serious-looking, and looked as though they were gonna go home and kill their kid for being sucha brat in school.. my mum and i arrived laughing, we left laughing too. that should tell you how it went. msgiam was so cute, when we first sat down, she "hi auntie, nice to see you again", my mum told her not to, just call her by her name, but when we left, msgiam forgot and told my mum "bye auntie!". and so i started laughing... x)
well, i guess what my mum say is true... no matter how much i dislike the teacher, i still have to do my work well because in the end im the one at the losing end if i choose to neglect my studies due to my attitude. so, i guess ill try to change my attitude towards jt, but no guarantee. but now, i have one positive thing to say about jt, she didnt say anything negative about me... just that im too quiet in her class and should try and improve on my language. so, my liking for her has just increased from -10 to maybe about 10 now.
gonna bathe and sleep now. tired after all that walking around.
its time to get serious and start studying.
HAPPY B'DAY MEI !!!
16:53
Friday, July 25, 2003
and so i told my mum my grades... guess she's a little worried that i wont be able to make it for the promos. well, hardly surprising about her reaction, especially since i myself think that if i dont work hard, ill definitely fail my promos. but i told her the truth, i didnt really study for the cts and that the way i answered the questions were olevel style, not up to the alevel standard, thus the results. she understood. so she didnt flare up or nag at me, cos she knows that after that horrible failing of my mid-yrs last year, when i say that ill put in effort to study hard and make up for the lousy grades, i definitely will. so no need to overworry. well, i guess it will also boil down to what msgiam has to say about me when im in class...
if all works out fine, ill be going out with my mum for some "retail therapy" as what val calls it.. cant wait.
shall evacuate before my brother comes home...
22:49
my morning wasnt very fantastic... i was too exhausted to get up to go to school for my run. which means out of this whole week, out of 5 days, i only appeared once. then when i got to school, i was too tired to even open my mouth to talk or smile. then again, i had no reason to.
the day passed by pretty fast.. got really pissed while trying to sort out the pw file. i almost yelled at my classmate right there in the library, but i managed to control myself. dont wanna to be known in school as thatstheonewhowentcrazyinthelibrary and then be banned from the school library for the rest of my years in cjc.
after msgiam finished checking the files, msgiam,jon,eunice,grace,danielle.me went to eat rotiprata... ben came along later. we had loads of fun talking and making fun of people. cheered up a little by them. shared a cab with msgiam and eunice home, and so, IM HOME!
not much homework for this weekend, so i guess its time to start doing a little revision. or maybe, ill get started on that thick pile of geog handout... its so thick that its divided into 2 piles cos mrlow said that his stapler couldnt go through that thick stack. and even though it has been divided, the staple looks as though its gonna go flying very soon.
my official grades for ct : D.F.F.
am i smart or am i smart ???
ptm tmr.
told msgiam to "watch what she says" or else no more sending her home in future...
18:11
Thursday, July 24, 2003
went to bed at about 1+ but didnt fall asleep till 3+.
got up at 5+ to come to school for my run..
major tired now.
today was a thinkplenty day.
loads of essay and assignments.
the day is almost over, but not the amount of work.
by tonight, to be completed :
- econs file
- chinese file and zuoye
- gp essay
- pw stuff.
and all are due tmr.
caffeine, here i come.
but i guess all this work is good in a way..
it will help me have less time to think about last night.
i guess the interpretation of words that aint said verbally
really depend on the individual.
i can say something,
but when someone else reads it,
the tone is all wrong.
not at all what i intended.
but hell,
ive gone through this same thing
over and over again,
its like a never-ending nightmare.
although its all familiar,
but the emotions that come with it
are always new,
as though its a movie clip
and the editor keeps on editing,
cutting and pasting my emotions
here and there and everywhere.
its okay if you have absolutely no idea what im talking about,
cos i aint thinking at all,
my fingers are just moving across the keyboard.
what i really feel,
cant be put into words.
i may complain and whine to my friends,
but that is just the surface.
no one has been able to penetrate the wall that ive built around my heart.
someone once did,
but now,
its just a thing of the past.
and the wall has even more layers than before.
shant come online anymore for today
lest i get affected by what i see
and be unable to complete my work.
emotions is a very complicated matter.
do you know that?
17:40
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
talking to tania now and im crying like a baby.
getting more and more agitated by the moment..
really hate this!
just when i thought things were getting better,
it just got worse.
worseworseworse
// tan : thanks for the advice & listening to me bitch. love you dear.
23:48
supposed to go on bitching about how much i dont wanna see jt tmr.
but hell, not gonna waste my time on her.
ill just sit in my front row seat and keep my comments to myself,
speaking only when spoken to,
lest i be labelled by her as showingattitude.
theres something wrong with my hp.
cant seem to change the profile.
when i wanna change from general to silent mode,
it keeps on saying "back"
instead of "activated".
which means that i cant bring my hp to sch tmr.
nvm, shall use my mum's hp tmr.
gonna be missing my hp... x(
tmr is another day... of hell.
22:57
today was seriously a major suckified and pissified day. early in the morning got pissed off by the seating arrangement. somehow, from a fixed arrangement, it became sitanywhereyoulikeaslongasyouarewithyourbuddy. just bcos mel and i went up late and every seat was taken, we are now sitting right in front of the class. i wouldnt have mind actually, if i didnt have jt as my teacher. but thinking that she will be standing in front of me with her ivebeenteachingfornineyrssoiknowwhatimdoingandyoubetterfolloworelse attitude and rolling eyes and dramatic actions simply makes me wanna die. and ill have like 3 periods of her tmr? gosh, what have i done to deserve this?
-screams-
my groups pw is major lagging. nothing is done properly, so we've gotta stay back tmr and rush everything cos the file needs to be handed in on fri. that means by the time i reach home it will be about 7+ cos we only end at 1630.
-screams-
what i received today did nothing to lift up my mood. instead, it brought me further down into the pits.
-screams-
why is it sucha lousy day today??? is it cos the fengshui of my seat aint good or did i offend some almighty one that has to make me go through all this
shit? urrrgh.
-screams and bangs fist on keyboard-
// ive learnt not to expect too much (or maybe im just turning into an emotionless person), so whatever you give, ill accept. its the thought that counts anyway. im not gonna put myself through another emotional turmoil just because i didnt get what i expected. in short, thanks.
im off to sleep this lousylousy day away. ill be back to scream again.. this time, its about having to see jt tmr.
right in my face.
-screams-
16:12
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
feel so tired.
as though i did double mass pe thrice.
think its cos i only slept 3 hours last night?
cant seem to do my homework tonight.
really need to sleep.
yet i can find the energy to blog.
am i lazy or what?
-drooping eyelids-
i think im too tired to even write anymore.
zzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz...
22:32
had breakfast with my sugarbaby this morning. didnt go for my morning run and neither did i go for netball.
after school, there was some rearrangement of seating arrangements & partners... some would be happy with their "buddy" but some wont be. my new "buddy" is now mel. think my ex-buddy would be quite glad that he got mel's buddy instead of me. well, responses will be known tmr when the announcement is made to the entire class about the new seating arrangement.
bumbum jon got me a little worried when he said that he left my wallet on the table and it was gone. i seriously didnt believe him at first, cos he is always so cheeky but after a while i almost believed. but when we asked one of the SCs if she had seen my wallet, i was looking away when i saw jon try to slip my wallet into the SC room. that ass. -sticks out tongue- thank god, it was just a joke. ill seriously cry if my wallet is gone.. all the important stuff in it.. my new dbsdebit card and all my photos&neos.
wasted an entire day in school after school ended. should have just came straight home and sleep instead of hanging around and do nothing. now im so freaking tired and definitely wont be able to complete my homework.
// sweets : cheer up alrights? dont look so glum, not sweet anymore. dont worry, it will work out somehow... *smoochysmoochy*
19:35
Monday, July 21, 2003
im missing you.
but pride gets in the way
and intentions misunderstood.
so instead of the verbal option,
i chose the silence.
i just hope that you are doing well.
thats all i ask.
22:54
-yawn-
sleepy.
-slaps self-
got homework to be done.
cannot sleep.
WAKE UP!
cold shower, here i come.
some simple econs..
if i sleep, the opportunity cost will be
a) homework not done.
b) tv shows not watched.
c) all of the above.
guess the answer is obvious.. haha.
20:09
so fucking pissed today... shouldnt even have bothered to get up from my nice comfy bed just to come to school in the middle of the day and see that jt for 3 periods! i put in a lot of effort for my othello essay (much more as compared to the others) and i failed terribly. and she has the cheek to say that t4 gives her the attitude and isnt attentive, always talking in her class. what the hell is her problem? goddamn it. i never disliked a teacher this much.. not even my history teacher last year.
moving on to other topics that will take my mind off that
bitch woman. had a great time during break today... laughed till i cried. (private joke). thats all. my day was pretty short cos i didnt go to school in the morning.. only appeared at around 12+.
waiting in school for my parents to come pick me up.
hearing their story of love
brought along a wave of nostalgia.
everything sounded so familiar.
the forbidden love.
the forbidden words.
the forbidden touch.
everything was off limits.
18:26
Sunday, July 20, 2003
overate...
again my dad ordered the set menu for 5 when there was only 4 of us... and there was like 8 dishes? the typical colddish, fish, prawn, noodles, dessert, etc. theres absolutely no space in my stomach for birthday cake tonight.
speaking of birthday cake, i think my brother is very cute... asked him to get one on his way back and he asked what kind to get, so i said, not too creamy and no black forest. so what does he get? cheesecake from fiesta. no cream therefore not too creamy and its definitely not black forest. haha. he's just so cute.. suddenly loving my brother plentyplenty. x)
didnt complete my list of stufftodobytoday this afternoon. after blogging, i laid in my bed thinking of something and i fell asleep... -guilty look- until my mum woke me up to get ready to go out. so now i got to sleep later tonight cos i need to finish my econs hw before ms giam kicks me outta class.
shall start early before i watch tv later.
i think canon is better than olympus now... feel like getting another one or if possible, trade. but my mum will kill me. so ill just stick to olympus till a later date.
21:39
supposed to be doing the work that i set out for myself that must be completed by today.. hopefully before i go out for dinner. but simply couldnt resist the temptation to come online and click around and see if anyone updated..
well, since im already online, shall type a little rubbish before i go continue my work. went for breakfast with my parents, bought more tibits from ntuc ($20), stationary from popular ($48), mushroomswiss from bk ($2.30) and whippedpotato from kfc ($2.75). got my dad to pick me up on his way home from dropping my mum off at her roadshow.
thats about it. back to work.
almost forgot...
HaPPy BiRtHdAy DaDDy !
14:34
Saturday, July 19, 2003
just got back from dinner... at chinatown. ate at some chinese restaurant. it wasnt considered a birthday dinner because firstly, the actual birthday dinner is tmr night and secondly, my brother wasnt there. so not counted.
didnt manage to do much work this afternoon.. shall make up for it tonight.
gonna have breakfast with my parents tmr morning at hans before my mum has to go for her roadshow (for god's sake, its a sunday and she has to go work... poor thing. nvm, she's on leave next week and after ptm next sat, we are gonna go shopping!) then slack around until popular opens and i can get my stationary.
i cant stand the sight of you.
i cant stand the words you say.
i cant stand the way you behave.
i cant stand the way you make me feel.
koushixinfei
22:33
"friends" is up and going.
leave a note if i forgot about you....
off to do the work that i was supposed to have started on 2 hrs ago.
15:46
new template... again.
not as pinky as it used to be.
comments box is gone, cant seem to make it appear.
but the guestbook & archives have made a comeback.
so, you know what to do.....
the "friends" link will be up at a later date.
im beat.
hApPy biRthDaY MummY!
02:17
Friday, July 18, 2003
went to town today with sweets.. finally stepping into town after a week of thomson. low on budget this year, so got both my parents a shared cookie, ie, mrsfields heart-shaped cookie with my horrendous handwriting on it. the lady was pretty nice, letting me go behind the counter and writing on the cookie, then she decorated it for me... i think its to make the ugly cookie look a little better. shall present it to them maybe tmr night during dinner, hopefully my brother will get to see it beforehand.
took the same bus home as sweets too... chit-chatting with her. pretty fun. at least i had fun.. especially when i saw how she sat at the bus-stop. so kawaii! -laughs- and she supposedly had something to tell me about eyecandy, in the end... a totally different topic. only the name was mentioned and no other details. waste of time. =p
hmm.. cant remember if anything else interesting happened today. major short term memory. but i do remember that when my mum came to wake me up for dinner, i seriously thought that she was gonna wake me up and tell me its time to go to school.. i was like noooooo. this shows that ive been sleeping too much and now my brain is all looney.
one more thing... today was a pretty good day.. laughed so much until i teared. a couple of times in school (private joke) and on my way home.. both when i was with sweets. she makes me haaaappy! haha. x) not forgetting the idiom ive been using all day on her.. (another private joke) hee. but she is happy today, and im glad for her, despite the seriousness of her -addidiomhere-
-eats ice-cream- yum. bought my parents both a magnum each and a split for myself. major low budget, so while they indulge on a $2.40 ice-cream each, i satisfy myself with an $0.80 one. but its nice, so no complains.. been eating it since young and its also the one that eyecandy always eats... haha.
guess thats my day. -thinks- what should i do now? no idea. haha. i think im crazy today. x)
// val : does "yannie" refer to me? if it does, I HATE IT!!! haha. if it doesnt, thank god. back to if it does, my class sits in front of 18's class, so i dont get the blocking of view part.... btw, thanks for the safety pin and nice chit-chat last night, although i had to hang up early cos of my migraine... hope you had/have (depends on when you read this) a fun time today and tmr. -winks- x)
23:05
Thursday, July 17, 2003
my whole class turned up in ethnic costumes today... everybody looked good. prefer the way ij celebrates racial harmony day though... there will be stalls set up selling the different kinds of food like satay, chinchow, etc. and the performances put up are definitely much more interesting than cj's.
i like my new gp teacher... johanna chua. she's nice and cool. her earring at the top of her ear is something that you seldom see teachers wear and walk around with it.. she's in her late twenties but talks our kind of language. think i got an O for english... x(
laoshi didnt come again today for chinese, so we just slacked the day away.
nothing much. off to sleep. been having this throbbing headache since jasminetan came into class today....
18:47
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
been living in the thomson area for like 13 years and counting and i never knew such nice chicken rice existed.... sad case. went to eat with sweets, jon, rik and tim. ordered a whole chicken, its really nice.. so was the chilli. *smacks lips*
i think my whole class is wearing ethnic costumes tmr... so exciting! -hops around- even the guys.. they are gonna wear sarong and a t-shirt. major enthus! x) thats one thing i love about my class... enthusiats yet not overdoing it.
supposed to run this morning but major lightning, so val, vals friend and i stopped after 1 round cos we were afraid that we would get struck.
saw eyecandy a couple of times today... and eden now knows how he looks like. *grin* apparently he "molested" jon. haha. jon's "childhood trauma". -laughs nonstop-
one more paper to add to the growing list of papers ive failed... measureformeasure. x( i dont ask much... just please let me pass my othello... please. then again, jasminetan is the marker... not a chance. urrrgh!
hmm... all of a sudden, i miss my brother. nvm, ill see him over the weekend when we go out for dinner. that reminds me, both mummy & daddys birthday this weekend and i havent gone gift shopping. oh no....
// val : heyhey.. havent been speaking much to you since school started... hope you are doing well or at least surviving. we still on for intensive in august? take care and ill see you during lect. x)
16:11
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
think i did the worse for translations... everybody did pretty well, guess its because damo marked quite leniently. and i also did very badly for my humangeog drq.. like 7/55? what kind of marks is that? ahh.. whatever. ill just wait till 26th july and see what ms giam has to say about me to my parents.. hopefully, only my mum.
went to school to run this morning.. actually i walked like 7 rounds instead of running. but hell, i still completed them. and that ass just had to tell me to stop walking and start running. whatever. its actually quite nice.. no sun, the morning breeze.. fresh air. pretty good for health.
thurs is racial harmony day.. think my class is pretty enthusiatic about dressing up.. especially the girls. might be wearing peranakan or sari. hmm, we were saying that jon could wear a cheongsam and represent our class in the judging competition and we will definitely win hands down in the creativity part. x)
stayed back and attempted to study a little with my honey and zhen today... only skimmed through 3 geofiles and a little bit of hydrological cycle. was asleep the rest of the time. *ooops* got my dad to come pick me up from school too.
glad i stayed back and glad that jon got dc today... eyecandy major! *grin* -ahemahem- and his orange shirt. haha. had a good time looking out for eyecandy today, during assembly, during recess, after school.... hee.
back to the actual topic... realised that a lot of people actually started preparing for promos already. saw them mugging in the library, in the canteen... they are everywhere. well, some of them were in school because they had dc but at least they were doing their work, not like jon, walking around and slacking with mel and i.... but he's smart, so no biggie.
oh ya, ms giam created a "buddy system"... i actually dont mind my partner, but he's behaving like a major ass nowadays. hopefully he gets better although i know he doesnt really want to. but i reeeally pray that we dont have to sit with our "buddies"... not that i dislike him, but i prefer sitting next to a girl. urrgh.
hope that by starting slightly earlier, ill be able to do well enough, if not better, to get promoted next yr. i cant bear the thought of retaining and going through orientation all over again. ill just die.
19:34
Monday, July 14, 2003
got back some of my results today and even though my chinese wasnt that fantastic (b3) but it was the most satisfactory subject. the rest were just... pathetic. then again, i didnt study, so it was kinda expected. and it was a major wakeup call. im kinda expecting a big fat juicy F for both geog and lit, maybe gp as well though i hope not. econs, i think i got a donkey D, not very sure though.
despite my "strong feelings" for my gp/othello teacher, i must say she is really good, a little too good actually, with her powerful vocabulary... but i like the way she teaches. the way she goes through comprehension is very detailed. every topic sentence of every paragraph. vocabulary. for lit, she mentions things that susantan never once spoke of, its all very in depth and makes you wonder how come you never thought of that before... just hope that she does this all the time. however, i seriously still cant stand the way she acts or speaks when she is trying to prove her point.. and she kept on picking on my sweets today... x(
tonight must really really do my chinese homework and econs tys... laoshi is a little pissed at our class's tardiness and ms giam expects the best from us. so, time to pull my socks high high.
will be reaching school at about 0630 tmr and everyday after that to run... which means that ill have to get up at about 0530 which means if i sleep at 2+ in the morning, ill have less than 3 hrs of sleep... grrr. hate that assholic teacher of mine. but surprisingly todays mass pe was bearable. i did my 7 rounds, pushups, situps, jumpingjacks, backraise, burpees, the hops, but i only did 5 grandstands instead of the 7. not gonna let that idiot have a chance to pick on me....
conclusion : its been a long day.
18:18
Sunday, July 13, 2003
boy, i am totally stuffed. just got back from the axn appreciation dinner at the sea sports centre. there was egg, meesiam, pasta, chicken wings, otah, stingray, salad, potato and corn. bbq style. it was pretty good. had like 2-3 rounds? as if that wasnt enough, after ms giam and i reached bishan, we went straight to the food court for ice-kachang and chengteng plus she ordered fried dumplings... major full now. walked around a little waiting for my parents to come and sent ms giam home.
just remembered that i got plenty of homework undone. econs tys, zuowen.... tonight no need to sleep already. then again, somehow i always end up sleeping instead of doing my work. -mustcutdownmustcutdown-
off to bathe and plop in front of the tv... i mean studytable...
22:21
was told to report to school the usual time for listening compre... in the end, it only started at 0930. to think i was there at 0650 (my dad sent me) thinking that there will be people around like on usual days, but no. i was the only one there and people didnt start arriving till like 0730... waste of my time. could have stayed at home and sleep longer in my nice and comfy bed. the invigilator totally sucked and three-quarters of the class was sleeping before the paper started.
met eden for brunch after the paper... sakae sushi. we i ate so much... love the fried tofu. *yumm* took a neo and of course pics with my digi... x) came home and this piggy here slept from 1330 to 1900 then from 0230 to 1130.... supposed to go out today with eden and jasmine, but jasmine got something now, so its been postponed till further notice.
meeting ms giam and sugarbaby at bishan later before heading to bedok to meet the rest of the class for the axn appreciation dinner. no idea what to wear, cos its a bbq reception and wearing berms might be a little too simple. hmm, guess ill stick to jeans and maybe my fcuk shirt.
double mass pe tmr... ewwwww. x( pure torture.
-thinks-
damn, getting back our papers tmr... double torture.
tmr is gonna be a lousy lousy day....
you always had more time for others
than you did for me.
im like your backup plan
should one of them be unable to meet you.
never did complain cos
i thought that you would know how i felt.
but obviously you didnt
and i dont think you ever will.
14:33
Saturday, July 12, 2003
mass totally sucked but the items put up by the teachers were pretty good especially when issac lim sang. he and the new teacher that i absolutely cant stand both have pretty good voices. saw ms giam in her cj uniform and i now know what she means when she says that it is looong. that cutiepie formteacher of mine burnt all of us a cd containing pictures of us since second intake as a youth day present... major sweetness! X) after school ended, about half the class went to ps for lunch. after that, they went to catch a movie while honey, sugar, jason and i went home to sleep.
plopped right into bed after i got home. took a bathe and my cousin and i went for the elva hsiao's concert at suntec. it was quite good, though enthusiam mainly came from the bengs sitting right in front. saw sharon au and jeff whatshissurname?
oh ya, eden's back!!!!!!!! had a short talk with her before i left the house. gonna meet her for lunch today then hopefully jasmine will be free on sunday then the 3 of us can go out on a neo spree! *smilesmile*
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i never knew what love was before i met you
you showed me care like no one ever did.
you loved me for what i am,
despite my countless flaws.
the day you left,
i was devastated.
i thought it was the end of the world,
there was no more light in me,
just darkness.
but i know that no matter where you are,
you will always be there for me
and im thankful for that.
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havent heard from you in a while.
the reason is clear to both of us.
busy schedules and never ending assignments.
just thought ill let you know
that no matter what our differences are,
and no matter how often we disagree,
i still love you.
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00:47
Thursday, July 10, 2003
today was a pretty good day if i may say so... except that i dont really fancy my new lit teacher for othello&practicalcriticism. she talks too much, too fast, jokes that aint that funny and it all adds up to a headache. had fahy for gp today... pretty scary at first but he aint that bad, hope he will somehow end up as my teacher for either lit or gp cos he is really good. ill just end up deaf, but its worth it.
went to school today to do the presents for ms giams birthday... my poor sugarbaby was blowing the balloons when both burst in her face. she got so traumatised. then during recess, sweets and i had a funfun time traumatising jon while he was eating and also looking at -ahemahem- went back to class earlier and helped to put up some decorations. when ms giam came in for her lesson, she was really touched by the presents we gave (a photoalbum with our personal messages + a glass bottle with 22 paper hearts + a bouquet of handmade flowers ) she almost cried but she controlled her tears.
laoshi wasnt in school today cos she has oral outside so she gave us zuowen to do, but obviously no one did. they either left early or stayed in class listening to cd and doing some rubbish. seriously think that i this chinese rep is major slack...
after school ended, we went to macdonalds at bishan, ordered our food and waited for the birthday girl to come. she came. food was served. ate and chit-chat. usual taking of photos. sing birthday song. make wish. blow candles. cut cake. serve cake. sabo ms giam a little. more picture taking after that. then she had to go off to meet her godma and others for another round of celebration.
it was funfunfunfunfunfun!!! x)
school ends early tmr.. around noon. yay. no lessons. but must wear tie. yuck. might go out for a while if i get asked. but cant stay out too long, tmr night got concert. sat got listening comprehension and sunday night got dinner with my class at seasportscentre. busybusy week.
loving my class more and more each day. x)
20:31
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
never ever drink that weiner energy thing... it really sucks. it gave me a tummyache during pe and that assteacherofmine thought i intentionally wanted to go to the toilet when we had to do the grandstand... but i did complete my 6 rounds without cheating today... x) also did every sit-up and push-up and jumping jacks.. im pretty proud of my achievements.
its gonna be a long night tonight... gotta prepare the stuff for tomorrow's party and also must be in school slightly earlier. went to bishan with sweets and sugarbaby for lunch, and were having quite a good time gossiping about the woodpecker. haha. then we walked around a little, buying stuff. then sugarbaby's baby came along... (//sweets : do i get to call him jiefu too? but sound very weird...not even that close to him.. ) but he had to rush off for training not long after that. so i came home while the 2 of them proceeded elsewhere to get more stuff for tomorrow.
gonna bathe. feel so sticky-icky...
**attn to those who intend to celebrate their birthday at macdonalds and wanna have ronald mcdonalds present... you gotta book him 3 months before your party.** boy, he is one helluva busy person.
18:28
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
just typed quite a bit and stupid blogger screwed up yet again so ill have to retype. grrr.
just came back from lunch at longhouse with sweets.mel.eunice.danielle.ruyi.jon.tim. poor sweets was waiting expectantly to eat her porkrib noodles but the stall wasnt open.. she was devastated. bought some gorengpisang and my fav sweet potato for my parents. after lunch, eunice.mel.me went to thomson walk a little, got myself icechengteng for supper tonight. *yummmy*
todays ne quiz was major sucky... i have absolutely no gk [general knowledge] and the marks for human geog is horrrrendous. there is no A, B, C, D grade throughout the level. only E, O and F. and the highest mark achieved in my class is an O grade. that means that the rest of us got a F[ail]. *sigh* but my econs mcq was slightly comforting.. managed to pass ok but still must improve so as to get ms giam's standard of average 25.
my dad just told me that the siamese twins that underwent the operation to separate themselves, one of them passed away.... so poor thing. x( feel so sad for them. they thought that they were getting a new life after undergoing the operation but now one has to live without the other...
better stop here before my entry doesnt appear and i have to retype everything...
16:44
Monday, July 07, 2003
didnt do much today except sleepsleepsleepsleepsleep... so, there's nothing much to blog except that i came home last night and found out that my dad bought me a new chair and it has wheels so i can now wheel around my room *wheeee* and he got some extra wires, after connecting here and there, i can now receive channel u and i... just nice. tonight got the nicenice eating show on channel u. x) oh ya, did i mention that
cant wait to see her!!! *smilesmilegringrin*
there's school tmr and we cant leave after the paper cos lessons resume. x( cannot go out.. hmm.. maybe ill drag sweets go watch the competition if it isnt too late or too far.. *grin* see how.
22:32
Sunday, July 06, 2003
went for the carnival today before it officially started. ms tania tan was late... sat at the bus-stop and stoned for almost half an hour.......... then we walked around and said hi to teachers. most of them were surprised that i turned up, the others were just too busy. saw my mei, bong, bestie, clare, bela, adrienne, martina... oh ya, saw my bimbo too. left pretty early but not before wasting a quarter of my water on mamateo. bimbo and i were squirting water at her. haha. the best thing is, she was just sitting there letting us wet her. think she was still a little wobbly from the jumpy thingy.
my parents came to pick me up and sent me to harbour front mrt to meet my class people. then we WALKED to sentosa in the hothot sun. got deployed to our stations and i stood at mine for about 45min and ended up with 20 mosquito bites and 6 mosquitoes dead. -scratchscratchscratch- took a couple of class photos (ms giam came down to meet us) and left for dinner at tim's dad's place again.
the food was good, and free flow of drinks. then few of us took the same train and walked with ms giam to the pasar malam at bishan to get food. she waited with me for my bus to arrive and homesweethome.
on my way home, my brother was walking behind me but obviously my music was too loud, i didnt hear him... *oops*
// bestie : soooo happy that i saw you today. luckily i was in the staffroom then i saw you from the window and i ran down to say hi! arent you glad? x)
// bimbo : nice seeing you today.. for like less than 10min? but well, at least i got to see you and glad to see that you are still alive and kicking. x)
// to those who are starting school tmr, hope you guys will enjoy.
p.s. i seriously think mr ng is starving trafford... he's so skinny! hehe.
22:43
the briefing today totally sucked! it was major disorganised. loads of time were wasted on waiting for onlygodknowswhat. ill be a marshal tmr, in the middle of nowhere and i really mean nowhere. its some kind of cycling slope and plenty of trees and mosquitoes. the best thing is, im on duty alone. major shit. my poor sweets is also on her own at some haunted house... that poor thing. nvm. there's always the eversohandyhp to keep everyone occupied. the worse thing is, we were there since 1130 and no food was provided. can you imagine starving for about 7 hrs? thank goodness after that we went to tim's dad's place for dinner. the food is really good and we are all gonna bring money tmr to eat the real stuff (that will be seafood)
came back for a quick shower and went down to harrys to meet tan. saw nessa on my way... hihi!!! gosh miss you so. must go out soon! x) *mmuacks* made new friends too. jing*kim*sharon*dennis : it was really nice meeting you all.. had loads of fun. esp taking photos. x) thks tan for inviting me. *hug* mango margaritta (correct spelling?) is pretty nice. but i prefer salt then sugar...
anyway, gonna make a short trip down to ij tmr. ill be there even before it officially starts cos i gotta be at harbourfront mrt by 1215. well, wont be seeing people like guniang. but nvm. i can always see her in school. but ill be able to see the teachers and my mei. ( peeps who are going that i seldom see nowadays, maybe people like bestie, eve, sorry. ill see you all ard. )
off for my third bath of the day. the weather is so freaking hot. gonna end up feeding the mosquitoes tmr. x(
00:02
Saturday, July 05, 2003
wrote a pretty nasty entry just now.. but ive since deleted it.
dont know why i bothered getting outta of bed just to delete it.
i somehow felt a tinge of guilt for not being a good listening ear.
but i am still pretty pissed cos that person seriously didnt put herself in my shoes although she claimed she did.
i just hate it when she doesnt put herself in my shoes and try to understand why i have to do things the way i do.
yet i try my best to suit her.
im not trying to claim any kind of credit for being doing so
bcos i know that im far from being the kind of friend she wants and needs.
i just need her to know that i need her support sometimes and not always having to see things from her point of view.
if you have absolutely no idea what im blabbering about, then too bad cos it obviously doesnt concern you.
// her : ive failed as a friend once again bcos i didnt listen to you talk about the quarrel you had with that someone you love. instead, i let my own accumulated fustrations be vented out on you. i feel bad. really. but im also pretty mad that you assumed i made a choice out of willingness and not out of responsibility. sometimes, all i need is your agreement on something and not your logic. because your logic always has the power to make me feel terrible inside, as though ive made the biggest mistake by choosing to do something that you did not want me to choose.
*sigh* sometimes i wonder why i ponder too much over consequences... if i didnt, i would have left the previous entry untouched and let everyone know how angry i was. nvm. its all recorded in my head and heart and privateblog. off to bed. nights.
02:53
Friday, July 04, 2003
back from my chinese oral... it went pretty okay i would say though i didnt know a couple of words. the examiners were fine too. but the waiting time was horrendous. sat there and stoned for about an hour and a half before it was my turn.
tmr and sun's sentosa "trip" is from 1200-1900. so, another 2 days of no play. well, at least theres no school on mon. so can sleep latelate.
i try and i try
but everytime you think that im not putting in effort
you think im all talk no action
what the hell is your problem?
16:39
// did i forget anyone??? if i did, im sorry... i still luv you! hee. x)
pretty bored so i decided to play around with html.. not bad huh.
- 2 minutes later -
im getting gidddddy...... xP
00:57
Thursday, July 03, 2003
stuck at home instead of tan's place. dont even ask why. makes my blood boil. *fumefume* i see a faint glimmer of hope that says i might be passing my econs. *prays* just found out today that i have chinese orals tmr and its right smack in the middle of the day. that means no going out. damn. nothing is going my way.
// sweets : im haapppppy for you! haha. hope it will turn out the way you want. x) and im freeeaking annoyed with that woman!!!
it hurts. but ill be strong.
sooner or later it wont hurt anymore.
12:40
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
i was quite glad about my achievements for the othello essay. managed to write the expected 2 and a half pages. but the essay for mfm got shorter. only 2 pages. translations being the worst of them all. less than one page. [defn of one page = one side of the foolscape paper] so you can imagine how badly ill do for lit overall no matter how well i do for othello.
did a bit of work today.. and of course, there was the usual clumsiness of val. *wink*
last paper tmr. (i dont count NE as part of exams) its time to parrrrrrrrty!!! pretty busy over this weekend... ij carnival not included cos ill be sentosa for cip.. stop rubbing it in already val! *sulks* everytime i go back to ij, i get scolded (so far : mstan, mamateo, mrng, mrtan, msshanthi, msjoteo, mrsalex, mrsnicks, msjacyip, msler, and a couple of others) for not being able to attend the carnival.. not like i dont want to go, was waiting expectantly ever since i found out about it but i have to go for cip. *grumblegrumble*
well, its back to last minute mugging for tmr's econs....
20:38
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
todays geog paper was another failure. the words just wouldnt flow. all my answers were so short. one question on one piece of paper and none of my answers went beyond one page. imagine one question with 3 parts to it, all about 4-6m fit onto one side of the paper with lots of extra space... -screwedscrewedscrewedscrewed- and i just heard the wonderful news [but whether its true or not is yet to be determined] that if one fails this exams, his/her parents will have to come down to the school to see br. paul or is it to see the ht? another version is that parents no need to come down to the school but the student alone has to see br. paul. *gulp*
well, im all prepared to screw up my studies the way i did for my midyears last year.
all this studying in a new environment is starting to get to me. fuck
14:21
