Thursday, March 25, 2004
life's a bitch
today was a really really bad day. so was the last couple of days. everything seems to be going down the drain. nothing seems to be going my way. the only way i can try and forget the misery im going through is try and chit-chat with the facils; try to bullshit and go through an unsuccessful attempt to regain sanity. life in school is so screwed up already and guess what? the first week of school isnt even over yet. lessons havent even started proper and i already feel like getting out of t04.
im done trying to explain myself. everytime i try to do that, it screws up.
so whoever has something against me and just wanna rub more salt into more wounds, go on. im not stopping you.
i just wanna end it all.
all this pain.
its consuming me.
17:22
Sunday, March 21, 2004
gosh, although my facil tshirt is wayy too big for me, i think after today, it will fit me perfectly.
met denise at noon. started out at heeren..
nu*dle bar with tomyamnoodles and thai fishcake.. walked around heeren. went to fareast, had
yakun, more walking around. spent like years in bits&pieces trying to decide if we should get the oxidised ring. the person kept staring at us, think he's afraid that we'll take his ring and run away? wth. then we had the
turkish ice-cream. told the guy that i just want my ice-cream, dont give me those tricks that he does to amuse people. went to isetan-lido and walked around. nothing to see. denise has set her eyes on a pair of nice nike slippers though.. she's gonna set up a slipper fund. haha. then we headed to citylink.. bought nice pretty
striped wrapping paper.. gonna wrap my notebooks and lit books with them. (:
finally headed to our final destination : esplanade. first went to
maxbrenners. had my chocolate fondue.. not that fantastic actually. but strawberries go well with white chocolate. *yummy. wanted to head to suntec and walk around but we ended up at
harrys drinking margarittas in broad daylight. like wth. was telling dee that if they ever decide to check id, (cos dee is so small) she'll be able to get in, but i wont cos although im bigger, but im younger. heh. but that guy didnt even bother, just took our orders. passionfruit margaritta is nice. (:
spent most of my money on eating.. saw sooo many nice things i wanna get. adidas tshirt. bags (guniang and crumpler). earrings. hairclips. trackshoes. slippers. its a never ending wish list.
kk, off to bathe and start fooling around with my labbie again.
20:15
Saturday, March 20, 2004
been fooling around with my labbie the whole of today.
intended to read through othello, but seeing the labbie sitting there...
just had to give in to the temptation and switched it on.
from then, there was no turning back.
heh.
and the result of that is finding out that actually im an IT idiot.
big time.
the only thing im good at is transferring images from my digi to the labbie.
:)
oh, and also installing sims.
those 2 are the easiest and fuss-free tasks ever.
im hungry.
19:35
Friday, March 19, 2004
3 things to announce.
one happy.
one ambiguous (up to individual)
one bad.
--1--
I GOT MY LABBIE!!! (:
lalalalala~~ i got my labtop!!!
*smilesmilegringrin
its the fujitsu C series. cost my mum 2907 bucks. heh.
cant wait to fiddle around with it tmr once the batt is charged.
even better when i get the internet connection.
*smilesmilegringrin
--2--
im burnt.
got woken up by mslindagiam this morning at 0822, asking me if i wanted to go sentosa. and she wanted to meet me at bishan at 0900? rushrushrush. cant rush in time, so i met her at 0930 at cityhall instead. went down to harbourfront, bought half of coldstorage's water + tidbits and nasilemak then headed to palawanbeach.
we slacked there while the guys played volleyball. swum to the platform in the middle.. quite fun.
the sun was great! tanned for eons before reaching the state im in now. burnt. but im happy! at least i got darker, fine, redder. giam is still in her original state despite applying more tanningoil than me. hee.
rushed home then went to fetch my mummy from work and to funan.
--3--
I CANT REMEMBER MY DANCE STEPS!!! ):
nana!!! bong!!!
i cant remember my steps!! howhowhow?? so screwed. im so gonna embarrass myself on monday in front of all those people!! howhowhow?? and council doesnt have any extra facil shirts... mine is toooooo big!!! howhowhow?? ahhh... stressed!!
21:49
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
just got back from facil training.
tiring.
practising mass dance was quite fun.
but i wouldnt dare say the same for nana... heh.
lunch sucked.
rice was too hard. chicken too bony. overall too oily.
basically, it wasnt worth 3 bucks.
think im not fated to go for maxbrenners.
been planning since cny, but plans were never executed.
now that its been confirmed,
i have to cancel it for "old times sake"
damn.
hate it.
16:58
Monday, March 15, 2004
feeling sick now.
nope, not under the weather.
but from eating too much at seoulgarden.
feel like puking.
urgh.
facil training tmr.
wanna go but not exactly that enthu.
must be the rainy weather..
making me feel all lazy and unfriendly.
just wanna stay at home and slack & watch wqyl & dream of my laptop.
ohh, and dreaming of maxbrenners too.
15:42
Sunday, March 14, 2004
went down to gardens for lunch today and bumped into my babe cousin - denise. she was with her mum and were having their lunch before heading down to westmall i think to support her darling brother in some dance competition. she was so unwilling to go but had no choice. so we sat, ate and chit-chatted after her dad came from church. was so full from all that food. love the luncheonmeatbun.. *yummy
dragged my cousin down to funan and suntec to look at computers. decided that i want a laptop. set my eye on two already.. either fujitsu or toshiba. gorgeous those two are. cant wait to let my brother look at the pamphlets then get my mummy to pay. heh. ill be dreaming of them till i get on hands on either. (:
was pouring for a while before i left the house, so to be on the safe side, my cousin and i each took a umbrella, but in the end? the sun was shining brightly by the time we got to funan. looked at two idiots carrying umbrellas when theres no rain. so embarrassing. next time, i rather get caught in the rain or take a cab.
20:35
Saturday, March 13, 2004
grrr.
im sucha piggy!
slept so early last night that i missed my 2100 show on channelu and americanidol!!
i slept at 1900 and woke up at 1000 this morning.
...
kk, dont remind me.
i was into hibernation mode k. after hema ate me bankrupt. we were supposed to go for fitness yesterday, but no one told us that there was a chem talk on, so we happily slacked in class and waited for 1600 to arrive. after we reached there, we found that the lights were off and the doors locked. so hema and i headed down to koufu. we ate so much (esp hema). she ate like 10 bucks ++ worth of food. so with all that food in my tummy, i came back and hibernated like a bear.
was supposed to meet giam for dinner just now, but with all that lightning & thunder & rain.. we decided to stay in. just had my dinner. major healthy. fruit salad. how does that sound? peach, nectarine, starfruit, prune. feeling so tutti frutti now.
tv time.
later.
21:35
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
mummy & daddy are coming home tonight!!
econslitgeog --> BCC --> computer on the way!
signed up for the nyaa fitness club thing.. fist session yesterday. pretty fun. played floorball. miss playing that game, we practically played it every single pe session in oi last year. floorball was meant as an icebreaker activity, but since we all knew each other already (hema, zhen, ruyi, valjames & me), it was redundant. the only negative side of the fitness club is that we must run twice a week in the mornings. bleah. hate running.
dont ask me for the truth for im sure you cant handle it. after the truth is out and should anything happen to you, the blame will come upon me for ill be the one who caused you to collapse. i can handle that consequence of people pointing fingers at me, because i know what i speak is the truth and not only you and i know that it is a fact, others too. they just need someone to push the blame on cos they dont dare to show you their true colours. the fact that im actually not telling you anything is bcos im hoping that one day, ill accept you for you and not being a two-faced bitch like some people are. so dont complain that im avoiding you, cos its for a better cause. i just dont wanna waste my time explaining to people the reasons behind my actions. meanwhile, reflect.
11:19
Monday, March 08, 2004
feeling so broke now.. /:
went out shopping with my honeyhema yesterday.. was just supposed to accompany her to look for a bag, she ended up buying 2 bags, and i came home with new slippers, new bag and 2 pairs of earrings.. feeling satisfied but guilty. great buys but also impulsive buys. *oops
todays perfect for staying in and just relaxing under the quilt and reading a great book. but no, had to get up early in the morning to go to school, without having properly slept last night, and cant go swimming. ended up in town with val, window shopping.. the tiramisu at coffeclub sucks. wasted 5 bucks.
as much as i enjoy the freedom i have now, i want my mummy to come back.. *pouts
16:52
Saturday, March 06, 2004
woke up at 0600 today and sent my parents to the airport.. was the only kid there. the others were just there on their own. my brother didnt go to the airport cos of hall activities, so couldnt take family pics. ):
after they checked in, i took a train down to ps and had breakfast with giam at cafecartel. love the maple syrup. (: then called hema out and we headed to sembawang.. wanted to get a pair of jeans, but nothing nice, so we took another train to bishan and had chickenrice for lunch. saw a couple of nice sandals at c&k but dont look nice on my feet, so didnt get anything.. no earrings, no hair clips..
came home, slacked in front of the tv, hibernated, then took a cab down to tp to fetch giam then headed to lorong5 for dinner. the noodles and rojak were YUMMILICOUS! but the stingray was overcooked. waited years for the bus to come then back to bishan, got my sugarcanewithlemon then came home.
my mummy called twice already since she reached perth.. hope she's having fun. missing her and my dad already... haiz.
21:23
Friday, March 05, 2004
cant wait for mon to come.. when i can hand up that mother tongue discontinuation form.. ill be free from chinese and laoshi. (: b3 aint that fantastic, but its good enough for me, since my love for chinese aint so strong anymore.
while everybody headed to town with their cliques, i went there to meet my parents. had lunch at this chinese restaurant in crownprince.. its seriously paying big money for the way it is served instead of what is being served.. think along french cuisine, where eveything comes in miniscular portions.
shopping afterwards... got a nice olive green skirt from m&s.. (: like it.. next is to get a nice pair of footwear to go with it. heh. retail therapy. *wink
gotta wake up at 6 tmr morning and get ready to go to the airport.. giam cant make it down cos of sch, so shall meet her after that.. but she has rock climbing tmr, so ill be free after she leaves....
gonna miss my parents after they leave..........
its me and my brother relying on each other,
or should i say me relying on my brother.
bleah.
22:33
Thursday, March 04, 2004
yet another day in school, in the computer lab... today's the best, 3 periods in this nice & cool environment supposedly researching on multiculturalism but in fact blogging, on friendster and other what nots.
no school tmr!!
hmmm.. dont know whether to be happy or sad. no school tmr cos of the release of A level results and since the year1s have nothing to do with it, we are given the day off, but unfortunately, i gotta come back at noon to collect my results for chinese... ): right smack in the middle of the day, cannot go shopping the whole day.
nvm, shall go swimming in the morning (havent gone this whole week.. *guilty) then meet my mummy after collecting results, then its shopping galore! (: shall make her spend $$ before she and my dad enjoy themselves in perth, leaving her 2 kids behind to turn the house upside down inside out.
09:41
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
*jumps around
*jumps around
im a happy girl today!
haha
can you feel my joy?!
*smilesmilegringrin*
22:15
in the computer lab again, supposed to be doing research.. obviously i aint. practically no one is.
woke up at 0540 yesterday to prepare breakfast for nana, giam & msang. virgin attempt. well, all are still alive. almost couldnt get up in time to make breakfast, so my mum told me not to volunteer my services next time.. i wont. unless its absolutely necessary or im doing it willingly. im too lazy to sacrifice my sleep.
think my whole class is gonna go elsewhere except in cj, and except the repeats. ): gonna miss all of them loads.. especially angel & sillytoot & sara..
hopefully nana stays... *prays
10:41
